This bloody fear of vomiting

So I went shopping today and started feeling a little sick, which always happens if I spend longer than an hour out in public, idk why. But I had sudden urge for bowel movement but not so urgent that I needed to rush to a toilet, I also felt a tad funny like kinda weak, i ignored the urge to use the toilet and it went away, but I started getting a very vague head ache. I got home feeling real tired and rather cold, I laid in bed feeling chilly but eventually felt hot in the covers but I was too tired to get out of them.

I ended up falling asleep for an hour maybe? Which is weird because I generally can't sleep during the day (it was like around 4pm when I fell asleep) and I now have a proper headache, I feel hot and tired but I don't think I have a fever. I'm also getting gassy and have a vague feeling of Nausea. For a couple days I have had a sore throat that comes and goes and is usually there in the morning and then it goes, I have had a small headache on off also but nothing bad. Both my mum and dad have had the flu, my dad was home the last 2 days with a headache and I dunno what else.

I guess I'm concerned once again that I have something that will cause me to vomit. Which technically could be good because maybe I will get over my fear but the fear is so bad I feel like I would panic and then choke on my vomit. I think the nausea and gas and feeling of urgent bowel movement might be me getting anxious over the flu type symptoms of tiredness and feeling hot, or it could be from period as I am on my second day of period and I know my period can cause me to get a little diarrhea and nausea. But yeah now I'm scared to eat because I think I have gastroenteritis or something.

My fear of vomiting isn't like I fear losing control and dying or anything, I just have a fear of the actual feeling, I know it's unpleasant but I see it as soooo unpleasant that I'm terrified of feeling it. I also haven't vomited in 8 years so it's not something that happens often for me and I guess technically my thoughts on how it feels isn't up to date because it's been so long, maybe it really doesn't feel all that bad but I can't find any other things that feel worse than vomiting. So I'm going to continue fearing it I guess.

I hope I've just got the seasonal flu but I don't have runny nose or a cough, just tired, hot, chilly sometimes, sometimes sore throat for a few hours and headache. And nausea if it's not related to my period or anxiety. I really need to calm down over the whole vomiting thing, I actually feel like there's no point in life if we just get sick and vomit. It's a vicious cycle for me.

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