Is it pain if you can't remember it?
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I also posted this under 'Colonoscopy'. I wasn't sure where to ask this
Yesterday I had my third colonoscopy. Before leaving for the hospital, I put a very small mp3 player that also works as a digital voice recorder in my pants pocket. It was on and recording. I understand there may be legal issues with recording others but I wanted to know what was happening to my body when I was under sedation. At the hospital, I was led to a small curtained area and told to remove my clothes, put them in a bag and put on a hospital gown. The nurse placed my bag of clothes on the bottom of the rolling gurney that I was on. I was told that I would be administered Propofol and not feel a thing. I was rolled into the procedure room and had what I thought was a painless, uneventful colonoscopy.
After getting home and letting the last of the anesthesia wear off, I played the recording. I couldn't believe what I heard. During the colonoscopy, I was screaming! I think I used every swear word I know. I was begging for the doctor to stop. A day latter, I have absolutely no recall of this screaming event.
To be fair, I did ask the nurse anesthetist to give me as little drug as possible. I've had nausea from anesthesia before and wanted to minimize it.
Did I cause my own pain by asking the nurse to go easy on the drugs or is this the norm?
I wish I hadn't taken that recorder with me!
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melissa91009 paul65190
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They could have easily given you more medication. Don't worry. If you have no memory and no pain etc, just forget about it. You're lucky, I had spinal injections under sedation and the Doctor played anesthetist and radiologist. Hence, I wasn't given enough propofol. It wore off twice during it, I woke up absolutely screaming in excruciating pain. out again. Woke up again screaming in excruciating pain. Out again. Both times, I clearly remember the nurse injecting a dose of propofol into my left hand cannula. I woke in recovery, furious, in agony and wobbly. I refused to see the dr and when came, I yelled at him. The nursing notes are extremely disparaging of me. They also verbally had a go at me. Very cruel ppl. No apology from the dr but he did admit I was screaming.
melissa91009 paul65190
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I had to have the same injections again a few months later and I said, 'you have to do them under general because I have totally lost trust'. He did, however I woke up with a lidocaine infusion going which I had not agreed too. My heart rate was 159, so they turned the infusion rate down. When I went to the day surgery room, the very good nurse noted abnormal heart rhythm between my foot pulse and wrist pulse. I started throwing up for the following 8 days in hospital. The dr never gave IV fluids. I was hallucinating and very dehydrated. I asked the dr for help but he just said I was "anxious" (friggin buzz words). I was discharged. Collapsed at GP two days later. Was admitted three times to emergency for IV fluids. Eventually, I collapsed unconscious at home (alone). My mum rang London paramedics from Australia as I passed out on the phone. I was dry heaving every 20 secs for a total of 6 hours. No medication in hospital would stop the strong dry heaving so I had emergency IV fluids (where they manually squeeze the bag in). They ended up with no choice but to give me a medication I was allergic too as my diaphragm was close to perforating. I went into a heart rhythm that can cause a heart attack. (SVT). I passed out. They tipped my bed down so my head was close to the floor and did a heart rate maneuver (with their hands... it hurt). I had woken up a little by this stage (having had some blood flow to brain during bed tilt). They sat me up but I passed out again. My dry heaving had finally stopped but I was in terrible pain. I remember when they were giving the horrid medication, I kept pulling my hand away and saying no. The nurse agreed to dilute it and give it very slowly but as soon as it hit my system, my heart monitor started alarming. As I was passing out, I remember the dr saying, 'give it all, she's already reacted.' My sister was visiting me in London and was also there for work. I remember her screaming, and 'yelling help her, do something!' It was horrid. All because the horrid pain guy didn't listen. I had told them to turn off the lidocaine but he refused. I have hundreds of stories like this over the last 7 years since my original trauma. I am now wheelchair bound and have episodes up to 9 hours of brain/full body dystonia because the drs have not listened nor treated me correctly. It's been hell and is STILL going on. 😢.
melissa91009 paul65190
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sorry, yes, I have PTSD 😢. The nightmares are terrifying.