Bipolar disorder and family

You don't offer your age, Kristina. How old are you? Young enough to have a mother, I'm assuming? What pharmaceuticals are you taking?

I'm almost 37.

I take carbamazepine and abilify.

If you look over the inserts for the medications you're taking, you should see suicide ideation as a side effect. Call your doctor or head for the nearest hospital. Report this issue. If it's not taken seriously you're seeing the wrong doctor. Some people can't tolerate those medications. Finally, at your age, you should be past letting a parental figure of any kind drive you to suicidal thoughts. Walk away. Go home. Find supportive friends. They are out there. Don't give up here.

I'm sorry you're feeling so awful.  I'm just a depressive so can only imagine the problems of being bipolar.  Your mother may well have different views of the illness and this may colour what she says to you.  Feeling suicidal is not being a drama queen - it is a really awful desolate feeling.

You sound as if you need to feel more safe about yourself and you may be able to decide how best to achieve this, whether it is going into hospital or not.  You also need support and perhaps the professionals in your life can help with that in the first instance, as we are not all lucky enough to have the ideal friends on hand to assist.  But nevertheless you are worth caring about, and I do hope you will seek help from someone who you think will sympathise and help you at this bad time.

Hi Kristina,

It might be helpful to block her on FaceBook. I know that sounds a bit harsh, but when you need to vent or complain or just off load your worries, FaceBook is a fabulous place for that because you get so much encouragement and love from your FaceBook friends, that often that helps us pull through a dark patch. The last thing you need is a troll raining on your parade and trying to stop you from getting the support you need. Sure, FaceBook is not the best support on Earth, but is a support none the less, and it is helpful.

Just block her, and apologise to her for doing so, saying you need that tiny bit of privacy and support from your FB friends, and since it is clearly offending her, might be better of she doesn't have access, so it can't offend her any more.

That's what I think anyway. Big hugs

 

sorry to hear about your troubles, sounds like you could do with getting away from criticism, it the last thing you need with your bi-polar diagnosis, Do you have any friends or a counsellor you could talk to, if you are living together, maybe you could go for a walk when your mum irritates you.  If she suffers with depression herself, you would think she would empathize, but if she is irritated by your illness, perhaps she too is unwell.  Very sad, would be good if you can get into hospital for respite.  I am 73years old and have now got my Bi Polar under control with medication which suits me and I do not try to come off meds as I used to when I was younger, which led to awful depression.  Good luck to you Kristina, hope you feel better soon.

Felt I had to reply to your last email.  I am struggling with depression but I am lucky enough to be at home, though I live alone so there is no-one to help me here.  Yesterday as I waited outside the doctor's surgery (office) trying to pluck up courage to try to get an appointment, someone stopped, talked to me, gave me a hug and let me cry, and then said that, whatever problem I had, I was valuable and I had a right to ask for help.  It was the comment about having value which really helped, and I keep re-running it in my mind.  I know that you too have value and wanted to say this to you in the hope that it may help you just the littlest bit.  I will be thinking of you today because doing so will help me as well.