Day 4 - I hope this doesn’t damage me more

Did anyone feel anything by day 4? or is it in my head? excuse the phrase . To help me and in case this helps anyone Day 1, i felt energised, then tired. Could have been nothing. Dry mouth. Day 2: Same dry mouth, need to keep busy, hyperactive, but in a calm way. Then something unnecessarily freaked me out and I couldn't calm down until i went to bed. I was so upset , could not shake it. I was sure i would stop the meds. Then i thought of the miserable days ive had, the panic attacks, being consumed, crippled with anxiety, intrusive thoughts. I decided I must keep going. Day 3: Better day, strange headache after dinner. Always get real tired, more anxious in the evening I'm noticing. So I head to bed really early after sons asleep, watch TV and write on here. I'm sleeping well which makes a change, with deep, vivid dreams. Day 4: Same as day 3, and then stupid minor thing happened, worried me and it honestly felt like my brain shirt circuited , feel broken, shaking, head sore, felt like i couldn't breathe. To bed i go...and write this.

Sleep is like a reset. Trying to take each day as it comes. I have some brain fog for sure. Ive had an appetite, but feel more anxious after eating i think which is weird, wonder why that is? When my anxiety isn't bad, I think i feel more content than i usually do, in that I am happy to potter about the house with my son, i don't need things to be as fast as they used to be. I usually am a crawl the walls person who needs to get out, and about. It is ok, I don't want them to be as fast. I'm definitely more fragile, any stress ruins me. But i am on the best road...i hope.

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