Feel so low & scared of everything

Hi R

I think you may need to go back on the anti-depressants (not necessarily the same ones) to give you a bit of stability, as it sounds like you are very vulnerable right now. What was the 6 week course you were on? Was it CBT? If not, may be this is something you should consider. Many people have had very positive outcomes with CBT and in some cases they come off medication altogether.

You've gone through some very difficult things lately. Divorce/separation is never easy - I speak from experience, and I also suffer from depression. It would be surprising if you were not feeling pretty bad to be honest. I know that's not much consolation, but it's worth remembering.

Hi, I am so sorry for this situation in your life. You should not give-up in life. For natural you can go for anti-depression medication. If you really come out of these kind situations then once you visit to a church. I heard a name called Dr. Bill Winston, is an anointed man of God is around there. Many life are being saved in there church.

Hi mck2

Thanks for the reply, yeah a lot. Did happen last year an this is probably the longest I've been like this. Other times I've taken tablets I have got through it but they always stopped me thinking as if I couldn't take anything new in. That's why I thought I'd do it without the meds an do it the healthy way but failing big time. The strange thing is since off them I have not gambled at all... Even when I've had hours to waste an money to use. Maybe tablets did not help the gambling.

I think I do need tablets but scared to know which ones are the best for me now as you kind of hear bad reviews on them all...

I know I've got more changes in my life as well coming up an my body an mind is also aware of this!

I tried reading "CBT for dummies" but my mind kept laughing at me an saying "you don't understand it.. Give up!"

At this rate I'm gonna be living back with parents an with no future or life..... ;-(

Hi jJeremy

Thanks for the message...I have not tried church but have thought about it as well.

Thanks both for taking the time out to reply!

Ok I was sick last night after having a really bad headache so I took 2x co codamal and I woke up in a great mood. So does co codamal help with depression and anxiety? I took 2 again this morning and have been fine all day...was able took cook and help around the house where some days ie really struggled to do anything.

I've started to feel my anxiety kick in tonight though so I'm not going to take any tablets an see what mood I wake up in. If I wake up feeling depressed and full of anxiety theni'll try the co codamal as a test.

I'm just so sick of feeling like this and just want my life back!!!!!

Hi ya,

Sorry your not feeling to great. I've had depression for too many years now. The only thing that has worked for me is anti depressants.

Tryed to get better without them when I was younger, it didnt work really. Since then tho I havnt been able to come off them, every time I try or reduce them I get ill again. I can understand you wanting to get better on your own, but if its not working you should go back to the docs.

I know pills arnt a miracle cure, they come with side affects. Just hope one day there will be something better to hope with depression.

I know how you feel about trying all these things to make you better, I was like that most of the time when I was ill, I read about omega 3, didnt take the vitamins but ate more fish, tryed to get out and exercise more, and uped me pills.

Try not to get down on yourself, your trying to get better. Anyone can get depression, dont feel guilty about being ill. It's like any other illness, and you wouldnt blame yourself for having any other illness.

Just rem people recover from this all the time and so can you.

Hi cherry

Thanks for your reply.

Are you feeling better now then as seems you have suffered with it as well? How are you coping?

I'm not sure if it is depression/anxiety/something else... All I know is I'm sick of it.

I've now been prescribed cymbalta delexetine 60mg.. I've tried to beat this with out meds but failed so time to give meds another shot.. Took first one today so gonna keep a mood diary and track thoughts an feeling and see how it goes. I've seen good and bad things about this medication...just praying it a good thing but will take each day as it comes an will be patient as can take up to 6 weeks.

Thanks

R

Hi there

I've been on fluoxetine (prozac) for over 4 years now. Depression is an illness (that is invisible to the outside world) and i've never had an illness this long before. I have learnt to go with the flow and try not to fight it as this doesn't work. As previous correspondents have said anyone can get it and its nothing to be ashamed of. On the off days its so frustrating but heho.

I have never come off the pills or liquid in my case as i had an elderly father who sadly recently passed away so i need them more than ever now to help keep me on the straight and narrow.

On top of the prozac i used to take a B12 vitamin supplement in the early days. I find there are various herbal/fruit teas that help in times of stress. I'll let you know what they are if you're interested. I contributed to the fluoxetine part of this forum a few years ago and gained a lot of support and knowledge from other sufferers.

Have you read a book recommended to me: Depressive Illness - The curse of the strong by Dr Tim Cantopher. It puts some perspective on things. If you suffer with nausea try ginger tea as ginger is excellent for this and digestive problems.

I'm not a herbalist but think that 1 medicinal drug is more than enough for one's body to cope with.

Lastly, be easy on yourself and give yourself some 'me' time. You have to learn to be selfish sometimes and put yourself 1st - something that i found incredibly hard. Also plenty of fresh air and if we ever see the sun again get out there to top up your vitamin D.

I hope some of this helps but if you feel the need to rant just fire away. Those on this site know where you are coming from and are only too willing to help.

Best wishes.

MP

Justiris, i take exception to your comments re:depression. Unless one has suffered the horrendous experience of having the illness one cannot fully understand what the recipient is going through. Its not feeling sorry for yourself. It is a mental illness that scarily sometimes feels completely out of your control. Basically the neurotransmitters in the brain are not working as they should and the idea of the medication is to correct this imbalance.

Most of the time this works if you are lucky enough to be on the right medication which some people find takes a while. I cannot comment re the gambling as i was only a mild gambler on fruit machines back in the day well before i had this illness.

Horrible things happened to me in the past as in various relatives and friends dying unexpectedly but i dealt with those situations. Depression hit me like a bolt out of the blue. Its not something you can snap out of or just feeling sad as we all do from time to time. Its an illness that more people need to be educated about.

I have removed postings from justiris as they were "off topic".

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Hi R,

Yeah Im feeling a lot better, and hope you are too.

It will take time, but you can get through it. I know how you feel with not knowing exactly whats wrong (depression/anxiety/or something different) Dont think I came under the classic depression or anxiety box. Everyones different so I guess its hard to diagnose.

I hope the meds are working for you, and your back to your old self soon. I think you were very brave to have tryed to get better without meds for so long, and also brave for deciding that wasnt working for you and trying something different like meds.

Hope your doing ok.

Hello,

I am also feeling the same and can understand your feeling very well. I am also not using any medication because I want to get out of this situation without med but not till now.

So , has there any improvement in your life?

Well i think im in the worst situation here,im depressed for several years,started from 20 mg now 150mg, struggle to go work and be in good mood with everyone,anger is high,its so dificult to fake a smile,and im not a bad person at all,but some people that i encoutered in my life,they where monster literaly,monsters,my life is a mess,i don´t have mood to go out of my home,im scared and feel very anxious when i need to go out,i dont smoke drink or got in drugs,im 25 year old male,and almost everyday i think in suicide,im struggling to live,i dont want to miss my sister, i love her,if i am alive its for her, anyway of course i have good days but they are so few,sometimes i just want someone to talk to,a person that really understand what im feeling,people in family they do not understand,so i save everything to me,people in my family says" you are good looking guy very talented,very good friend,why are you depressed?.

Well people in my past and continuos making it bad.

 

Hi

Not one to look on these sites for answers but typed in on Google " depressed with gambling problems and bored all the time" and none of the stories related to me that I have been reading.

This site came up with this story so when I had a read of your situation your like a double of me.

Won a fair bit of money 8 years ago and liked living the high life and started gambling more and more extreme altho I had been gambling for years and years and could never admit I had a problem.

Soon as I got married and had a child I was suppose to be at happiest point of my life but I was at my lowest. Started getting depressed and having 1 or 2 mental health problems so I started taking anti depression tablets and been on them for 6 years.All in all I m just generally getting bored and wanting to move away some were warm but don't want to be selfish as I have a little girl now who I have every week end.

Split from my wife and back living with my parents, working in a tidy paid job but most pay days gambling large amounts hoping for the big win so I can just move some were warm.

when motivated I go to the gym for 4to6 months and get in brill shape then comes the crap weather and turn into a slob and don't do nothing after work and always tired.

Friends ask me to go out and do stuff but find excuses not to do stuff and at my lowest thought about suicide a few times but never actually tried.

Let me know how you are coping as I really don't know how to deal with things at the moment.