I feel like i'm watching myself go through life without actually living it.
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Hi.
First post so here goes.
Recently I haven't really felt myself, it's hard to explain but the title above sums it up I think.
My memory, whilst never really been great, is getting worse, I admit that I can't be bothered with DIY, garden, christmas etc. and I have really let slip contact with most of my friends.
My wife has been a star and is super organised which helps me, but it isn't fair on her as she does all the stressing and organising for our kids as well as me and her.
I have had one episode of depression before but I always thought it was a one off.
Any thoughts and thanks in advance?
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jemimah88932 Jackhammer
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Thanks for that.
I would like to just stand up and tell myself to get a grip to be thankfull for what I have, and I am. I am a very lucky person to have what I have.
I just wish I could be the person I want to be but it's hard.
It is easier to just sit back and not worry about anything and let others make the decisions, but it is not fair......it isn't, but still I just wander through life with my head in the clouds.
Is this depression or am I just being dramatic?
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maria_1963 Jackhammer
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I would be lost without my wife, I really would.
I just wish I could be there for her as she has been for me, but I know I haven't and that hurts.
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krollette66 jemimah88932
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We are all accountable but to ourselves . People going through a period of depression need compassion, support and understanding not judgement.
When we are depressed we are our own worst critics.
When life gets tough our best is good enough.
All the very best
Jo
jemimah88932 krollette66
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krollette66 jemimah88932
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I have a basic belief system that people in General are kind at heart and will help others whenever possibile.
This site in a way proves that point in that no matter how much we struggle personally we can still reach out to others.
I am sorry if in my last post I appeared to judge you.
I just believe sometimes we can create our own heaven and hell. If there is a God he would not stand from a point of compassion not jugement. Have a wonderful Christmas
Jo
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I also spoke with my wife and she was supportive but slightly surprised as she said she didn't notice or think I was acting any different.
This part worries me as now I'm thinking it's me just being me and i'm perhaps just in a lull as i'm always a bit more down in the winter.
Anyway we will see what happens tonight!
Thanks for all your supportive words.
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Roll on spring. Let us know how yoiu are doing. God bless
anne240 Jackhammer
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Don't be hard on yourself. I am sure your wife understands, and is helping make things easier for you. Be kind to yourself. Talk to your wife about how you are feeling. Don't bear the burden alone.
Depression is a lonely place to be, and like you say, you don't feel you are actually living.
You have a wonderful family, so hopefully that will help you through this episode. I am sure your wife understand how you are feeling.
You take care now. Hopefully things will improve.
We here are really supportive, so keep writing to us. We know how depression feels.
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Everyone is so nice on here!
I am hopefull that I can come out the other end of this a happier person.
I need to make some changes in my life....like to excercise more as I always feel better but that (like most things) has been put to the side.
I need to open up to my wife more and share my feelings, something that doesn't really come naturally for me, but i know it's the right thing to do.
I have to stay positive as I have been through this before and did make it out a happier, more caring and better husband and father.
My kids are my inspiration and I will not let them down.
Hey.......I DO feel positive today.