So stressed out

A few months ago I noticed quite a lot of small white patches on my vulva.  For years I've had problems on and off but have never gone to see about it as they eventually go away. I've had what seem like blisters that bleed and what seems like boils and they occur more often around the time of my period. Also through the years I've had a burning sensation inside that's worse when using tampons and things like that. I've also had itching on and off around the vulva and inside the  vagina. I shaved to get a better look at these patches but thought nothing of it. A few months later and I started to look up google and my symptoms have led me to Lichen Sclerosus. I am 99.9 percent sure that this is what I have. I've been so depressed reading about it and I'm petrified and embarrassed to go to see my GP because I think it will result in waiting for a referral to a dermatologist or to get a biopsy and even with all that there is no cure and a lot of people cpmplain about the steroids. I've become so depressed that I barely go out and I've just been sitting in crying all the time feeling like a freak. My skin looks tighter and wrinkly and ugly and the labia majora looks weird and thickened and like it's lost its elasticity. I don't even feel like a proper woman anymore. I'm concerned about vulval cancer, fusing and shrinking and the fact that if it is an autoimmune disease I might end up getting another one because I read you can get diabetesthyroid problems. Also I'm not sure if it is related but for the last few months I've had two days of spotting before my period begins. This is new to me plus bad period pain for the last couple of months.

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