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Wrote this a while ago, was meant for my family but can't show them they'd think I was stupid so before I delete it thought I'd post it here least that way someone will listen xxx
I've tried to tell you all this for so long
so today I've decided to write this song
In the hope your'll finally listen to me
Because you've got me all wrong
I'm not who you think, I am not strong
I'm going to tell you now just how it is I feel
How what I'm going through is very real
I wonder what you'd do, I wonder what you'd say
if you knew just how unhappy I am each and everyday
If I told you That I hate the world that everyday i'm on the brink
of taking my life
Tell me, Then what would you think?
I've tried to tell you before but none of you believed
So I'm writing it all down so you can finally see
Just How little I cope how I struggle to get out of bed,
to wash and get myself dressed
How my life's one huge mess
I feel like I wasn't meant for this world
Like it was some cruel mistake
Feel like nobody knows me
what you see is just fake
I want you all to hear me now and I hope your'll understand
nothing in my life has gone the way i'd planned
Remember years ago when I went off the rails, went a little wild
You never knew the reasons, I couldn't say
It was because I was abused as a child
None of you knew because you wouldn't get it,
I'd have probably got the blame
Like somehow I deserved it
I couldn't speak up and make the family divide
So I kept quiet, kept it inside
I see a counsellor to try to help, have done for months now
You didn't know that either, I couldn't tell you, i didn't know how
You see you're all so different to me you're all so very strong, I'm part of this big family yet don't feel I belong
Everyday is a struggle, everyday I have to fight
Sometimes I can make it through the day
But then comes the night
I'm scared, I cry, the frustration overwhelms
I cut my arm with a razor blade
To try to calm myself down
Because at night i'm alone and scared half to death
Feeling sorry for myself for i have nothing left
I'm weak, i'm pathetic, that's just me
A victim of my thoughts and feelings
Just wanting to be free
So this is it, this is who i've become
A woman in a child's body
Feeling constantly numb
So next time when you tell me "grow up! just get a grip"
I want you to see, i'm not well, it isn't self pity, this isn't just a blip
This is something that's always there
Just want someone to love me, hug me, help me, show me that they care.
Have so many issues that I just couldn't tell
Didn't want to be a burden and bring you into this hell
But i don't know what else to do, I'm feeling desperate now
So Please please listen, please try to understand
You're my family, I need you, I love you, I want you to hold my hand.
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Dondons3
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andrew41778 Dondons3
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UK-Ven-medicate andrew41778
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Happiness can seem miles away but that doesnt mean you wont get their even if you feel like you on the later running train to London going at 2 mph just leaving Inverness. the journey maybe long but evr step forward however small is a positive step
deirdre._03652 Dondons3
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You must really write an anthology of your poetry...it is written from thedepths of your heart....it is raw and honest...you truly have talent young lady.....Take care always, regards to you also always,,, God bless xx
DEIRDRE xxx
deirdre._03652 Dondons3
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You must really write an anthology of your poetry...it is written from thedepths of your heart....it is raw and honest...you truly have talent young lady.....Take care always, regards to you also always,,, God bless xx
DEIRDRE xxx
hypercat Dondons3
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bev xx
Dondons3
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Blu02 Dondons3
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"So next time when you tell me "grow up! just get a grip"
I want you to see, i'm not well, it isn't self pity, this isn't just a blip"
Personally I think you should show your song to your family.... who knows they may even start to understand.
Dondons3 Blu02
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maria_1963 Dondons3
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Dondons3 maria_1963
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Donna xxx