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Why does life hurt so much?
Things are so hard ive had enough
Why can't things just be ok, normal, without any pain?
Im Physically and Mentally drained!
Feel lost, too many tears ive cried
Cut so much the blood runs dry!
Taking meds that no longer help me
Wish I could tell the doctors, wish I could make them see
That nothing helps, that i'm a lost cause
Lost all trace of the girl I was before
What do I do now? Where do I go from here?
Been down every route yet still getting nowhere!
Own worst enemy don't deserve anyone to help me
Maybe this is my life and how it's meant to be?
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caroleUJ62 Dondons3
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your'e not a lost cause. No one on this forum has to be. You joined us here for a reason. You need to be able to talk, and at least you can talk to people here.
I have cut myself, taken meds that are rubbish, cried and cried, and done things I'm ashamed of and have had bad consequences for me and my family.
But I feel that I come through it, even though I still feel really depressed for some of most days. I just feel lucky for the little times I can enjoy which are silly things like hugging my lovely cat, enjoying a cup of tea, made very carefully in the way only I know I like it - watching Question Time, and listening to some of the people on it talking sense about us having a more just society, and thinking - yes there may be hope still at some point.
Please dont give up. Just dont give up.
tanya73811 Dondons3
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Nessie91 Dondons3
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you could ask for a second opinion, which I did, in terms of the psychiatrist and psychiatric nurse. The mets have been changed yet again, but they are paying more attention. Previously, I got a combination of Mirtazapine and Sertraline which caused me to black out for 9 hours. I live alone and phoned Community Health and was told to go for a walk and keep busy. I ended up in a Medical Assessment Unit in hospital and they were appalled that this was the advice given as I'd broken a rib, had a black eye, two broken teeth and bruises on my face and neck.
some days life is hellish and all I want to do is not to waken up or keep my head u der the duvet. At least when I was on the Mirtazapine, I did sleep, but within a week the dose was cut from 45 mg to zero and put on something else to "pep" me up which has made memory agitated.
there's no easy answer but during the night, I think of others, such as you in similar circumstances. It doesn't help all that much but at Least if I keep telling ,yield, I'm not the only one in this state, it helps a little
ross97360 Dondons3
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celtics Dondons3
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Dondons3
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Thank you again for your replies
Donna xx
celtics Dondons3
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ross97360 Dondons3
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I am so pleased you have sought help believe me i know its hard i have been at the hospital just this morning due to a change in medication from seroxat to mirtazapine it seems my doctor forgot to take me of seroxat slowly indeed i ask my self. anyway enough about me how are you feeling now and apart from tablets have you thought about doing a daily diary? i am about to start one and its a good way to record what happens each day and how you deal with it and not forgetting the valuable support from people like me and others who know how you must feel please keep intouch.