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Hey people. I constantly feel that everyone is hiding some secret from me. That ''secret'' is something I have done in past that I don't remember BUT need to feel very guilty about it. A lot of people, not all of course, changed somehow in relationship with me, and I'm worried that I'm guilty and bad person.Maybe I'm paranoid but I'm very sad because of this and my self esteem doesn't exist anymore. I feel like I lost my identity and that I don't KNOW myself but other people knows like every step I make. Somehow. This scares me sometimes. I used to be positive but my life is in a complete mess now. I cry a lot and loose control easly, harm myself and take too much pills in once to harm myself. I don't feel anything anymore. I'm constantly worried and need to check out everything and to overthing everything because maybe I will find the truth that is hiding... I lost emotions, I'm starting to hate a lot... but that's not what I used to be. I feel like scared 7 year old lost in the world without anyone...
I often feel like my life will be over very soon and that I lost my life already. Nothing makes me happy anymore because half of my mind is ALWAYS on trying to find that secret that everyone is hiding. I'm 21 year old btw
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