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I went back to work today after having been off sick and worked from home for the last 5 months (back problems).
I had a little procedure last week to relieve the sciatica pain down my arm. For some reason that started my panic attacks. They have been with me ever since and on a very very intense way
A month and a half ago I reduced my citalopram from 20 to 10mg. I was so bad that I've been back on 20 for 3 days. For some reason today was so bad! I thought that being back at work... I'd forget about everything but no. I felt like a nervous wreck and felt like crying but I couldn't!! I got home and it was even worst!! Felt so anxious, so scared of I don't know what anymore, dizzy, couldn't eat the whole day again, just feeling like screaming because this anxiety is not not not going away!!
I forced myself to go for a swim. Once there I wanted to go out as I felt so unwell. Everything scares me I look at something or somebody and I get this intense knot and fear in my stomach which makes me gag so terrified I get!! I then sat on the side and did my breathing exercises which went from worse at first to better. I was shaking, pins and needles but couldn't actually move my arms!! After a few minutes it disappeared and I felt a little better. I'm now back home but I'm scared that I won't be able to sleep because of those irrational fears and thoughts!! I've just taken my citalopram 20mg and I'm praying to feel better tomorrow!! If I'm the same as today I don't think I'll manage ( does anyone ever feel this way? Do you think I felt worse because the 20mg is kicking in?? I just wanna feel good again. This rubbish is ruining my life and I have no one to talk to, no one that understands.
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