1.5 of new normal after thc drug use

Hey guys.

Long story short.

End of 2020 i took one drop of delta 8 tincture thc drug that you swallow and enjoy being high. Never got high. Got instant pain in my heart. That night i already started feeling different in my brain. The next day first ever panick attack, almost called 911. Started having racing thoughts. Tinnitus. 3 weeks after went to ER because i was sick of it. Blood work clean. They said its mental and prescribed lorazepam 1mg. Never took it. I had days where i literally could feel my brain.

Issues that i experienced: head rushes, dizziness, confusion, insomnia, anxiety, pain in heart/left arm, muscle twitching, short term memory loss, lack of focus, feeling bad about bad things i do or have done, could be because of racing thoughts i had one night thst woke me up and all negative things ive done went through my mind. Never felt normal since that experience. i experienced this after listening to 8000 hz video on youtube that supposed help tinnitus... the moment i closed eyes i could see negative things.

I did blood work again one year later becuase i felt like i have palpitations. results clean. I almost fainted while blood was taken. as a result my tinnitus got worse. Different frequency basically. more annoying. i was prescribed zoloft 25mg. never took.

I did iridology test. they take pictures of eyes and read organs. i was shocked how accurate it was. it showed dizziness, swollen testicle ( i had swollen testicle without even telling them), lymphatic system ( had swollen something in my armpit and in around neck), something with cardiovascular system ( maybe because of this pain in the heart and dizziness?)

), stress levels, even issues with part of the brain responsible for speaking and i never understood why i barely say anything. just amazed what it showed.

its just i dont know what to do anymore.

i dont feel normal anymore. i dont know whats causing what anymore. some symptoms are gone, some come back, new develop. i was healthy before drug. never the same after using it. i truly dont know how to start fixing everything. i took vitamin k2 that affected me... my brain started racing after that...beets affect my brain too. i cant drink alcohol. just every day is different. so hard to live this life... i was told to do brain mri but now im afraid to be exposed to this machine and whatever is going to go through my brain while test is being done. i put recently hand on some device that was scanning energy and after that i started having sensations in brain..... racing thoughts the same day. its just unreal what this drug has done to my life. any advice appreciated

on the side note i have schizotypal personality disorder. i isolate from people, wasnt touch with my family for years, dont have friends, was always fine with it because i lived in virtual reality for the most of my life due to my family not being together. i just grew up being numb. its just it didnt affect me before at all. i experienced some depression due to failed relationships but never any serious symptoms or issues.

i lost 50 lbs. most of the weight because i couldn't eat for first months. then i started fasting to help myself. i lost additional weight. from 190 to 135 currently. i eat clean but not that i enjoy it. i would rather be fat, happy and eat garbage that being skinny and unhappy and experiencing all this negative issues you can possibly think of. i appreciate if you guys would like to know more to help me or have advice where should i go or without what things wont change. what i must to do start helping myself.

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