1 month today

Thanks Pistal 😊

Cold turkey. I can't explain why but I just no longer have the urge or desire to drink anymore. Like it was just pulled out of me. It is hard to explain but I am just not interested anymore. I have had a couple days in the month where I REALLY wanted a drink but I just threw the thoughts into my imaginary filling cabinet at the back of my brain and replaced it with something else I enjoy.

I set up a system in case I can't control the desire and this is the plan:

1st-If I get an overwhelming urge to drink I have to contact my friend who is a speaker at A.A. (Alcoholics anonymous) first

2nd-I found a resistance to go to that takes women and always has a space available for urgent needs. It costs a lot but my health and getting rid of this bad demon is more important to me.

I am going to see my doctor A.S.A.P. to go on leave from work so I can heal. I am trying to stay strong and doing well but the longer I go without drinking the more I realize the why I was doing it and need to seek some counseling and fix my life once and for all.

Thanks Sandy ☺

No. I am not a member of A.A. I have tried before and did not like it. Before every time I tried to stop drinking I had a painfully overpowering urge to want it. This time I don't. I do not know why but I thank whatever force that is out there that is taking this load off of my shoulders.

Oh welll done Smile - I remember your filing cabinet system really well.

Your friend being a speaker at AA is like a Guardian Angel on your shoulder.  You really have put implementations into place. 

Very impressed.

Respect

Gwen x

Thanks Gwen. 😁Always love hearing from you

Well done by the way, how are things going?

Hi Sharon. Thanks for asking. ☺Doing well. 6 weeks tomorrow. Got a 2 week leave from work from my doctor and hooing to extend that ig possible. He put me on effexor for anxiety. How are you doing?

Things with me could honestly be a lot better. Still a lot going on and it is a daily struggle right now. I know that the anxiety can be the worst thing ever...unless you have had it its hard to understand but i know where your coming from so good luck with getting sometime off to rest and well done for 6 weeks!! Pat on back big time because as we all know its not easy. xx

Your right about the anxiety hun - I have had it for years and hate it - panic attacks etc.  But then what makes anxiety worse - in one - alcohol.  So it is a lose lose situation.  Hard work but we keep on trying and trucking x

You will win this - I have faith in you.

Yep, mine has been especially worse recently since they left. Really scared the p**s out of me (sorry for the expression). Deep breaths and all that, i found myself calmer after about 10 mins but it really was the worst i had ever had. Started worrying it was even more than an panic attack. Weird. Your right though about drinking, yes of course that does make it worse. Nightmare. You are brilliant as usual. Weather is great over here, whats it like with you? God im a big moan...would love to have the family here to enjoy it with. It rains in northern ireland all the time, so this is rare, trust me. Ethan cant make it today, but may see him after school tm (really hope so). I  suppose i am better than i was when they first left, in the first couple of weeks. Couldnt have been much worse to be fair. I am trying and yes that is the plan to win and have a better life in so many ways. xxx You are a great support to me,i can not thank you enough.

Always here hu x