10th week on 50mg - Normal Ups and Down or could it be something else?

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Good afternoon kind souls,

My journey with sertraline 50mg for Depression and anxiety began on the 6th of April so about 9 weeks ago and after going through every single nasty side effect (suicidal intrusive thoughts included) I've been feeling better over the last few weeks(7th and 8th). A student of my school then took her life and despite having never been my student it shook me a lot(leaving me feeling really anxious(even stopped drinking my daily expresso) specially because it's a small school. Went to my therapist yesterday and after talking to her about what the whole ordeal made me feel I came out of the appointment feeling like poo. It's like I'm back to square one and the meds weren't doing anything.

In fact yesterday I even had to take half a victan 2mg  to fall asleep. I thought I'd be feeling better today but being by myself I feel afraid of my own brain.

Are these ups and downs normal?

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  • Posted

    Hi Domingo.   I’m sorry you are feeling so low it must have been a huge shock when someone you know takes their own life and to deal with that when your mind is healthy is hard so it’s going to be even harder when you are struggling already.   I think the cruelest thing about anxiety and depression is that it makes you question your own sanity at times and that is a very scary place to be but it’s part of the illness its not the real you and you have to keep reminding yourself.   You will get better, it’s not going to happen in a few weeks it’s going to take time.   
    • Posted

      Thanks for your kind words, last week I was telling people that I wasn't feeling as depressed anymore(as I was doing everything not to think about the girl) but once my therapist started pursuing the subject it sent me back to the intrusive thoughts phase I went through when I first started therapy and medication. Saturday in the evening I had to take medication to sleep,

      yesterday was super complicated as I was alone but I slept better and today seems a bit better but what a setback.

    • Posted

      If it’s all the time and bothering you then perhaps you need to change dose.  Best thing to do is have a chat with your doctor I think.  
    • Posted

      No, it's not all the time but I still don't like it. I'm still pulling myself back from the blip on Saturday and Sunday but today I had very few intrusive thoughts.

  • Posted

    Sorry to hear this Domingo. Last night I had an extremely vivid dream about a girl i used to go to school with who took her own life. It was so real. At one point in the dream i realized this and asked her if she was the girl i thought she was, and then I woke up. 

    It hit home for me. Feels like it undid some of the work ive been doing. I spend alot of time alone too so i understand how hard it is. 

    I wish the best for you. Maybe consider increasing your dose? Im also at 50mg on week 5 and am thinking of moving up to 75mg by the end of the week. I would assume by now your 50mg has almost run its course. 

    I was on 100mg a hear and a half ago and I was fine and functional. At 50mg i cant do much of anything except waiting for time to go by. 

    All the best. 

    • Posted

      I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next month and with my therapist in two weeks, if this continues I'll bring the topic if they don't and hear what they have to say.

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