16 and I'm really not happy anymore
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First a little background, I'm a 16 year old from the United Kingdom. I'm gay and autistic if that will help what I'm about to write.
I'm so done with life, everywhere I go and do and say just either ends me in a worse situation than I was worse in, college is a Bitch, I have no friends and don't hang around with me. I also don't get invited to meet ups or party's or anything of the sort. There is also some other things and i am going to highlight them.
College- every classmate in my class does treat me like i am their walking joke; always taking the mick out of me because I'm gay and I do stupid things and say stupid things which in my eyes, seems normal. Also, I only had one person I got along with, but me and her don't get along cos we got into to many arugments. So I lost the last person that will put up with me.
Friends- with friends, I have none, I though I did, until I realised is that everyone in our little group, ignores me and use me as a running joke, they also don't invite me to meet ups or wherever they go. They just meet up and I find out about it on Facebook with me going, oh looks like they had a good time without me, I would have ruined it anyway.
Gay- now there is no problem with me being gay, I love men, so what? But the problem is, like, no one excepts it. My "friends" just seem to take the mic out of me every time they see a guy, and just say stupid things. Also my family did not like this one bit, my dad hates me for it and will never accept it, my uncle does not seem to accept it, and my brother wanted to "change" me.
And all of this just adds up to me being depressed, not I want to kill myself depressed, but like, what's the point of even trying to be social, having a Facebook or Twitter account, no one dm's anyway, saying oh, wanna hang out, and even if someone does want to, I have to say in the first place. And honestly, what's the point of trying.
I'm not here trying to be a little b***h, or just type my problems away, I want help, I want advice, I want a way to make myself happy again for the first time in years.
So please help me, what can I do?
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