16 year old girl really looking for advice on what to do with myself

I’ve never done anything like this(posting on a website or whatever I’m doing at the moment) and Have no idea if I’m posting this on the right website if this isn’t the right kinda page  can sombody kindly direct me to a page that will do so if it exists as my doctor doesn’t seem to know what he’s at) I’m a 16 year old girl who has it pretty good, I’m smart and loved. In grade 8 (13yrs) I was diasnosed with  generalized anxiety disorder. Always a anxious little girl stayed home from school because I had a “nervous belly” had a healthy fear of dangerous things often got anxious for no reason. I would often stay up all hours of the night full panic attack tantrum  just because I was scared of not getting enough sleep I’d often throw tantrums that were rough to watch but short lived. I’d feel a wave of guilt and depression all day sometimes longer. as I grew up the anxiety got worse with school and going through hard times at a young age. My mental health took a quick downward slope and I had major painful panic attacks (luckily I kept a diary through a lot of this) my family doctor prescribed be with Prozac 10 (June 14 2016) and slowly built me up until my anxiety calmed down but with that I became suicidal. Dr. switched me to Zoloft (all this time I’ve been smoking marijuana which I know probably wasn’t great at so young but it kept me happy and I was a hard case I still to this day do it every single day) But I quickly realized mixing marijuana, Zoloft, epilepsy medication(a misdiagnose) and taking the pills on and off because I didn’t want to be taking them was a very bad idea and again went through a very sad scary time. Finally my doctor put me on ventflaxin 37.5 and I eventually needed more n more so dr. Put me on the “name brand” effexor xr and i finally felt okay! I would have to build up every so often but it was doing wonders I so much better. By June 2018 I was taking 262.5mg of effexor and I felt it wasn’t doin the trick. The anxiety was starting to come back as was the depression. Me, a hypochondriac as my mother says always think there’s gotta be somthing more, I’m still not right. I may be better but not right one day I came across an article on adhd which was like the one thing I definitely thought I didn’t have as I assumed adhd was like “disruptive at class time” “couldn’t stay seated” “climbing in odd places”

But as I read more on it it described my life and there’s alot more to it then all that especially in girls apperently. I told my doctor and he said “I’ll be damned if you diagnosed yourself instead of me!” I was really happy because this might be it I might end up right! Since it’s summer break I really wanna be okay by September and want to know the full effects of the concerta they have put me on so I got off the effexor I weaned myself off it In four days as though to rip off the bandaid cause I like to consider myself tough and want the withdrawals to be over by September of my grade 11 year but comming off these effexor might just be the hardest of all my mental health journey. I cannot relax or I will break down in tears and the depression will take over I’m having panic attacks as bad as before I ever got on medication I feel very suicidal and don’t want to go on anymore even though I have great support all around me and I’m very blessed physically I am in chronic pain all over,extreme headaches,insomnia and brain shivers and I think I’m experiencing a bit of Vertigo too. I’ve takin lorazepam when I have a panic attack and half a clomazapam to help the withdraws. I’m wondering :

1.how long will this last?

2.Is there any good food or natural things to help through withdrawals?

3. Will the depression fade or will I stay this low?

4. Should I maybe start a less harsh antidepressant with the concerta? 

Soon considering the hospital for some advice and  psychiatrists around here scarce 

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