18, severe pregnancy scare anxiety

i have been struggling for a while now between making myself sick and thinking im pregnant, this is going to be a bit of a lengthy post and i know i may sound ridiculous and stupid but im really scared.

i last had sex 31st october 2019, the person i had sex with used the withdrawl method and im pretty sure there was a few seconds between him pulling out and finishing. in early november i got really bad vertigo, i coudlnt stand up and literally struggled to get up. it was a few days later where my friend mentioned pregnancy and my anxiety consumed me. i went to the doctors around in january with complaints of stomach stretching like pain, just not feeling well, dizziness and constipation. She weighed me and i was my normal weight (around 45kg), she performed a physical exam and found nothing and then ran some labs blood work and a urine sample where i dont know if she was looking for pregnancy but found i was low in folic acid and another vitamin and most likely had some sort of gastro disease like ibs. ive never had low folic acid before but i have ceoliac so it wouldnt be unusual. at this point i would be at around 3 months.

by the way during this i would be getting what i called my normal period, i was bleeding on the 13th and 14th of every month consistently some heavy and some light, but always enough to fill up a tampon. Although, i was still scared that i could of been pregnant from all the horror stories i read.

i do attend therapy and we have discussed this problem but this fear of being pregnant has taken over my life, at this point i would be 30 weeks, im getting stomach cramps, back pain, my boobs are bigger, headaches and i just dont feel like me. i havnt slept properly in so long and end up waking up in the middle of the night in fear that im pregnant and even in labour. ive called pregnancy hotlines, abortion clinics, friends, doctors who have all said its very unlikely im pregnant, ive posted across forums who have reassured me im not and yet i still feel terrified. i took pregnancy tests (5) from around 4 months to 6 months which all came back negative, i was scared they could all be false negatives as my hcg levels would be to high to detect now.

i perform daily checks like standing infront of the mirror to check my stomach, pressing my stomach to see if there are "baby kicks", researching like a crazy woman on the internet about everything.

i end up having panic attacks and crying in hysterics and i hate it all, this has been 7 months of complete agony and im praying for it to all be over.

i just want to know if i could be pregnant,and what to do at this point as i feel like im crumbling apart.

this is feeding my anxiety and depression and if i really was pregnant i would never be able to face my family or live with myself.

please help

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