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And life has already changed drastically.
I have done Christmas shopping, visited friends and family.
Run many errands.
Been to many Drs appointments.
Ate and PREPARED many meals. I remember in the first week, not being able to eat AT ALL.
There is still left over doubt and pain in the family. And I expect it...but it is still frustrating. People expect that I will be drunk at or BY Christmas. I was last year...and I let a lot of people down. So they are all apprehensive about the plans that we have. I get angry...but I guess I can't blame them.
I have a lingering stomach issue which is either damage to my digestive tract or worse yet...pancreas! The Drs are investigating the problem now. I have taken tests and waiting the results.
But I know as long as I don't drink...my stomach should improve.
My mood has already improved quite a bit.
I have been called upon a couple of times in the past week for some minor emergencies...and I have been AVAILABLE. It feels good when my 70 year old mother calls and in a round about way says she NEEDS me to come over because my father was lifting things and doing things he shouldn't be doing at 76. I was able to run right over there last night. If I were drunk NO...I wouldn't even answer the phone call.
Theres good and bad points to being sober. The bad is feeling the guilt, remorse, pain and feelings as things come up. But the good outweighs the bad in a BIG way.
And I had to be up today at 6am for a responsibility..I have not seen this hour in MANY years...and especially never when I was drinking..unless it was to grab a beer to stop the shakes and go back to sleep
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