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I'm a 22-year-old man diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. For nearly 20 years I've suffered from major depression, OCD, debilitating fatigue and complete physical and emotional numbness. It takes me an hour to get out of bed in the morning because my legs won't lift. I try my hardest, then relax for a few seconds and then try again, over and over until it finally works. I'm on sick leave from school because of all of this. I've tried both SNRI and SSRI medications, as well as various anti-anxiety medications, with no success. I've even had 10 sessions of electroconvulsive therapy with no success as far as my depression goes; the OCD, however, has gone away a bit. Today me and my mother met my doctor who explained to us that my depression is psychologically based rather than biological and that it will go away even though it doesn't feel like it. I can't believe the last thing he said. How is it supposed to go away if it's existed for 20 years without ever getting any better? How much longer should I have to wait for my overall mental and physical well-being to improve? He's now decided not to give me any more ECT sessions. He even said it's not my fault. How is it not my fault? I understand that mental illnesses can be complex in nature. It would be nice if someone could explain how my depression could be psychological, especially if it's not my fault. I would also like to know what I can personally do to make my situation better. Has anyone been in my situation? For how long, maybe? Maybe not with the AS but at least the depression and debilitating fatigue.
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