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I'm jen.. I'm 22 and I deal with the draining battle of panic attacks and generally worrying about worrying, I'm happy to share my story and find reassurance at the same time and to make sure I'm not going loopy and I know that I'm not alone. I'm generally a confident person although I don't always feel like it, however the stupidest things become the biggest and most magnified. A few years ago I had a panic attack when having dinner with my partners family. I found this so.humiliating and I was highly embarrassed and actually was worrying more about what everyone else was thinking of me, which then made me worse. I'm tall and slim so you can imagine what they were thinking leaving the table.. Oh she has an eating disorder (actually I eat alot but have a fast metabolism) anyways when I get nervous or a.panic attack,.sometimes they are unexpected but sometimes they are just brewing. I hate filling up at the petrol station (I know i know) how ridiculous right? Fearful of panicking and drawing attention to myself I guess.. Even I don't have all the answers to my own anxiety. I sweat, I gag or dry heave, I shake uncontrollably, I apologise for everything or say I'm sorry over and over, I get dizzy I feel sick, I lose control of my breathing. The list goes on. I've been with my boyfriend over 7 years we've been together since I was at school and now we have our own mortgage etc and he understands me and helps me but even if get annoyed at myself because the truth is the only person who can help.yourself is you. Medication is not the best option however I do take propranolol but I try to be stubborn and strictly only take it when I have to as I do try to cope with it myself. But I always say its easy to sympathise with someone for example who broke their arm because you can physically see their pain or suffering they are going through, so you can understand, however it's much harder for people to sympathise with someone who has anxiety because you can't see it constantly. I recommend reiki this has really really helped me. Trust me I was willing to try anything to get rid of this anxiety and it does help. And swimming! after reading the forum it's nice to know thousands of people deal with this and some who suffer much worse than me however at that time you just need help. Sending positivity to all be strong.. Think of your anxiety of a child having a tantrum and demanding your attention. Acknowledge it's a problem but you'll deal with it later. Hope this helps just 1 person :0) PMA positive mental attitude xx
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