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I really need some help from other people and would like to know if anyone is experiencing the same as me so thought joining a forum might be my last hope and some self help!
I had a really bad experience taking and ecstasy pill last year and ever since then I just haven't been the same. I haven't touched drugs since but I think there experience has just left its mark on me. My panic attacks startd in January but I only had a few and it was easy to live with. I had a really bad panic attack at work back in April and just haven't been the same since. I felt like I was going to die and my mum had to come to where I work and calm me down. I work as a nanny looking after a 7 month old baby which can be quite lonely and difficult and often I have time to sit and think and let me mind race. After a few panic attacks that week I was put on 2mg diazepam as I was going away with the family I work for to Chicago for three weeks and was terrified I wouldn't be able to get through it. I've been back for over a month and finished my diazepam the doctor won't give me more as he says they are addictive. I startd CBT last week but the past week has been horrific for my panic attacks. I constantly have a tight chest so I can never relax and because this feeling never goes away it's just a constant cycle waiting for the next attack. I've had a couple of ECG scans and they have both come back fine. I seem to suffer every symptom of a panic attack from thinking I'm going crazy to thinking I'm going to die and I always think I'm having a heart attack and I'm waiting for one to happen. I used to be so care free and not worry about anything and now I worry all the time about things I never did before! I'm constantly feeling like this and it's really getting me down I just want it to go away! Is there anyone else that feels the same as me? Am I going to be like this forever? Any help or advice would be grateful.
Thanks everyone! Mimi
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