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Hi there, im completely new to these forums but find its really my last hope before i do something silly. Ive had a history of anxiety and depression for around 4 years but recently i was involved in a really bad car crash resulting in me being cut from the car and more importantly my 2 year old son was in the vehicle also. We were very fortunate to walk away with just minor injuries but i was completely at fault. Everyday since I have been blaming myself, thinking i couldve killed my son that day and other innocent people. I cant eat or sleep and when i do sleep i have extreme night mares resulting in me wetting the bed at the age of 26. Im so ashamed of myself and feel like i just would rather have been killed that day. My son is the reason i get out of bed in the morning and try my best to carry on a normal routine but im slowly killing myself inside amd deteriorating fast. My gp has told me to contact lifeline (a belfast charity) which in turn have told me they cannot help unless i say im suicidal (which i refuse to do as im a mother) can anyone please help me? I was a regular gym goer, ive now lost interest, not working, wont leave the house due to traffic which causes severe panic attacks. My poor partner deals with my extreme mood swings. Im literally at my witts end. Please help. Thanks in advance
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