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I am 19 years old and 33 weeks pregnant since I was 15 I suffered with aniexty and depression and an eating disorder which I was on fluoxetine for a while then changed to citialopram, which seemed to help, when I found I was pregnant I made the descion to stop taking the anti depressants and I was doing surprisingly well. When I was 29 weeks pregnant my sister was raped and I found it hard but throughout my pregnancy I obsessed about my health that I was going to die to the point I suffered with a panic attack which has thrown me off, I now don't feel normal I feel I'm going to go insane I don't feel connected with myself I have to sleep in with my mum but I'm scared I'm going to forget who my family are and who I am, I walk into a room and feel anxious because I feel like don't know my surroundings, I feel very anxious writing this now. It feels like the only way out from this is not to be here anymore, I don't want to be in my bedroom cause it surrounded by all the baby's stuff and I panic I feel like I don't want this baby because of how I've started to feel , I feel I don't know who I am I don't like looking in the mirror cause I don't recognise myself I haven't eating a proper meal for 5 days I've been so anxious I've been vomitting . I just don't ever think I'll feel normal and myself again, they put me back on citialopram 20mg on 29th March but they changed me to fluoxetine on Sunday as i felt worse on citalopram, so I've been on fluoxetine for 3 nights now. I feel like my brains shutting down that I've got amnesia or dementia because I fear I'm going to forget my family and myself and my surroundings I feel I'm going insane . Will this get better?
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