4 weeks post op

There has been extensive research on the gut flora and mental condition. It is super important to maintain the flora or you can experience a lot of mental issues. I would start taking a probiotic and eat foods like yogurt to replenish the flora that was lost or damaged as a result of the surgery. I think then your mood will stabilize. Hang in there, I have Crohns Disease as well and I know what a burden it can be.

Hi, I had an Ileocaecal resection, when I had my first drink on recovery I wondered if it might leak, then I was frightened to eat anything other than bland food, I lived on chicken for weeks after until I was sick at the thought of it. Shopping was a nightmare, I felt physically sick every time I tried to think of what to buy. I lost 15kg and it took a long time to get my energy levels up again. Having suffered from depression/anxiety in the past I did really well coping with the op, it was decided to do it in the space of a couple of weeks when my son and other family had already booked trips away but they were back by the time I left hospital after 11 days. The only thing I would change is having a spinal block for the pain, it didn't work. 

I would say it is still early days for you and it is bound to have exacerbated your anxiety. Write down every little thing you experience and are worried about so you don't forget what to ask at your follow up. Maybe even jot down how you are feeling each day so you can see improvements as time goes on. Everyone's journey is different as is everyone's Crohn's symptoms.

Don't know about your bowels, I didn't know until 6 month's after that it was bile salts, I thought I was still in a settling down phase. 

Take each day as it comes and try not to stress out, you HAVE been brave, it was a major op so you are allowed a wobble or two!