4 YEARS OF UTTER SADNESS

Hello, Im from Vancouver Canada. 14 years ago i fell in love with a fellow and was with him for 2 years. Upon our break up i was told that he had recently found out that he was HIV positive. Of course i was scared and shocked. It took 10 years to show up in me. So now i live with this disease which is not my worst nightmare. In fact thanks to our medical system, i get the best drugs and treatment for free and live an HIV undetectable life as long as i take my meds every day. The unfortunate thing about all of this is that when my immune system was grave and i had just started treatment, many things started to come about. Most things are dealt with ie.....shingles, thrush, yeast infection but one thing that has been happening that has brought me to my darkest place and has made me seriously consider suicide is what has been happening under the skin on my face and in my left hand. Now i consider myself to be as sane as the next person but there are days that i question myself. Ok lets get back to sane. My symptoms of 4 years are as follows....First noticed a little lump on my chin which opened and pussed and from there a weird skelital 1/4 inch wide track had made its way up my jaw line and as days went by more of these suspicious tracks appeared as well as on my one hand. Of course i had to investigate closer. At 51 years of age i knew my body very well and this was not correct. I tried to remove these little tracks with tweezers only to find them to be like little spine and rib type things. Sharp, spikey, railroad type shaped things that were what seemed to be just below the skin. Upon pulling them out to my surprise, beneath them were spiney, spikey leaf shaped things that were approx. half inch big and wide. Now i am on a mission. Pulled one out and instead of bleeding, out comes what i thought was a little blood clot. Strange i thought. The more i found and tried to remove was the same blood clot type thing. So i finally decided to lay these things on the bottom sisde of a plate and noticed that they all were simillar when stretched out. They differed in length. Some as long as my finger and others not. Some were bulbously fat on one end but what they had in common were that if i held them under water, they would lose all of the blood from inside them and become very thin. Well now i am convinced that i have some sort of worm or parasite that i am hosting. Off i go to my HIV doctor who treated me for every derma and skin infection on the planet until he decided that his options were exhausted. So again i mentioned....," could it be a worm or parasite?"  He basically caled me a nutbar and told me he could no longer have a client patient relationship and i was to leave immediately. So i did. Only to find out 4 months later after umptine E.R. and clinic visits that no doctor really seamed to care, that this S.O.B. disease specialist had deemed me Dilusiolal Parasitic Psychosis and it was now on my perminent medical record. Now i get why i was being brushed off everywhere i went. Well 4 years has past and my symptoms are worse and quite unbearable and I AM BEGGING FOR ANSWERS, HELP AND RELIEF. I am an absolute mess. The symptoms are worse, the conditions are more and i cant keep self surgically removing this menacing, disfuguring, scabbing, scarring and painful thing that has stolen my freedom and quality of life. PLEASE HELP ME??? My self diagnosis is a possible G. PULCHRUM?????

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