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I just turned 47 which is really much harder than 46 was but neither feel good and knowing 50 is right around the corner is depressing enough for a woman but we get the added stress and depression, weight gain and psycho mood swings brought on by menopause, not to mention the hot flashes, omg! I don't know if what I'm dealing with is just menopause and will go away if I can hang on til it passes or if I have some really bad issues medically. I lost and can't afford insurance since Obama care so I can't afford to go to a doctor which really sucks because I am so scared! I wake up with horrible pain running through my legs, feet , arms and hands and even after a night of a full 9 hours of sleep. I wake up exhausted, completely unmotivated and feeling like my life is over so why do I keep trying to function? Because forcing myself to go to work will hopefully keep me from. Ring homeless but I'm afraid that is inevitable. I'm not married, have no savings and my career isn't paying what it used to do I'm living with my parents, dad is 79 mom 75, and my older brother who promised to always make sure I'm okay died a tragic death 4 years ago. I keep trying, force myself to get out of bed, my parents are always on my case, they get around better than me, why do I hurt so much? I'm so much younger than them but I'm more tired and in more pain, is it because of menopause, because I'm alone and they have each other? I'm catholic and believe I must go through whatever happens no matter how hard because suicide would keep me from even having peace after I die but each day it gets harder and harder and I question whether I can make it to the end. Is this normal? Do any of you feel the same, is there hope?
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