5 weeks of 20mg update
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well its been 3 weeks at 10mg and now 5 weeks of 20mg cit , and i am still very anxious full of worrying thoughts ,nervous stomache bouts of depression tired lethargic , no motivation and not through the lack of trying , still feeling the hopelessness of never going to get better , i still am feeling no relief from this med at the moment , still feeling of nausea and very low appetite infact no interest in food at all , i could increase the dose of cit but to be honest i dont think i could handle any worse side effects , so for me its been 8 weeks of hell and no sign of letting up , considering i have felt like tis for 12 months now i am starting to loose faith in meds
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elizabeth20203 terry03243
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Elizabeth.
polly06 terry03243
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Felis terry03243
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i know the first 8 weeks are awful and sheer hell but it does get better. It took me three months to be able to wake up in the morning without shaking and having that gut wrenching feeling.My doctor gave me a mild tranquilliser until I reached that stage of feeling well and now I don't need them. Perhaps this might help as an interim thing but talk to your doctor.
from your past posts you have said that you have been on meds for other reasons and so this is a lot for your body to take . You are doing really well considering what you've been through so give it some more time.Its easy for me to say I know but honestly I didn't think I would ever get better and I used to live literally one day at a time until without warning I felt better because I stopped fighting the anxiety and thought stuff it and accepted it and tried to find anything to distract me . Do hope things start to improve soon .Just remember you are not alone in this plenty of people care.x
terry03243 Felis
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Felis terry03243
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Been thinking of you so much. I was born in England but have lived in Australia many years. we have different services for Mental health care. I am so concerned about your mood and the only thing I can think of is to call the Psychologist and and see if you can get to see her / him earlier as your situation has deteriorated at least see if they can put you on a priority list for a cancellation. My Doctor actually called the psychologist and asked her to see me urgently when I was so depressed. I also went to an anxiety disorder clinic at a hospital for two months and that really helped. If you google Anxiety disorder clinic maybe there is something available in UK.
I was very impressed with Katecogs reply to you she is so helpful and she is right to say stick with the Cit for a few more weeks.
Try to go out for a walk daily and even make a list of things to do then tick them off.this will give you a sense of coping.
i wonder too if work would be able to give you just part time work distraction is a great thing for anxiety.
When I went to work I was a flight attendant and I don't know how I did it . I would sit in briefing stomach churning pins and needles in my arms and kept smiling I acted as if I was OK .and then eventually the meds kicked in and I could laugh again. I must say the social contact with the crew was great because we used to laugh a lot and were very supportive.
Wish I could help more but keep posting remember we have all been there and you will get better. Big hug xx
katecogs terry03243
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I do feel for you - I've been there myself, and know you're feeling in a hopeless situation at the mo, and know that each day is torture for you.
Though you've been on meds for 8 weeks, it's only 5 weeks at 20mg. Is is the dose I recovered on and it took 3-4 months before I started feeling anything. All I can say is do hang on, do take each day as it comes, because you're so nearly there. Don't increase the dose because it'll just prolong the side effects. This is where a lot of people fall down - either increase the dose making themselves feel worse, or start to come off the meds. When I say it takes a long time to recover, it really, really does. It's sheer hell getting through it all, and when the side effects start to subside, the wellness will start to happen very, very slowly.
It really is worth hanging on, however bad it gets. Recovery is there for those who wait it out.
I know you can't see any way out, but you're in the clutches of anxiety at the moment, and anxiety brings despair, negative thoughts. I had all this and dreadful nausea, but it all passed eventually. Every morning my heart would sink, I'd sob and eventually drag myself out of bed. I'd feel scared, sick, despondent, terrified and exhausted from everything ... before I took the meds and during them too ..... but I kept going as thought I had nothing to lose. When I recovered it was like a breathe of fresh air - I had myself back again.
Don't lose faith. Tell yourself each day that though it is bad, your body is moving towards recovery even though you can't feel it yet.
These meds are tough. But the answer to your depression and anxiety is around the corner.
We're all routing for you.
K x
terry03243 katecogs
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katecogs terry03243
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This is my 3rd type of SSRI medication - I first started on Seroxat and though I recovered on this I found it made me really angry all the time, so was switched another (forget the name) which was great. That was eventually discontinued and I was switched to Citalopram - but yes, I went on meds for depression and anxiety. I had it on and off for 15 years, and some days my anxiety was so bad I didn't know how to cope. Mornings were my worst. It was such a dark time in my life. Once I started the SSRI's it all subsided and I got better!!
Yes increasing or decreasing medication will make anxiety a little worse, but it will wear off. Maybe if you find 30mg too much, maybe take 25mg or even 30mg one day and 20mg the next? I got better on 20mg, but we're all different and it's often trial and error finding the dose to suit you.
Hopefully now that you're off the other medications you can just concentrate on just Citalopram now.
Sorry to hear you aren't able to work at the moment - do try and keep yourself busy If you can though, it's helpful. It's really hard doing things, getting out of bed even some days, but exercise is good for you as it burns up excess adrenaline - a daily walk or a cycle ride etc. Would your employers allow you to work some hours - it's just a thought.
K x
jean84704 terry03243
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everything you have said was me up until last week I went through all the same side effects I am now into my 13th week of taking cit 6wks of 10mg then about 3wks taking 20mgs which sent my anxiety through the roof so doc reduced me back down to 10mgs and it now seems to have levelled out .take note of what fellis, polly and katecogs are saying they have been on this journey longer than me and always give good advice they certainly have helped me since joining this forum.
jean x
p.s David always gives good advice too.