6 months on cit.........

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......... its not going to work for me is it? I started on sep 8th at 20 mg, it was ip and down, then at start of nov I uppes the dosage to 30 mg, and tbh the back end 8f nov and all of dec was pretty good. However the new year has brought nothing but disappointment, 2 weeks ago i upped the dosage again to 40mg, now I know when the dosage is increased side affects can reoccur but this is horrible. Virtually all my symptoms are back, including the obsessive thoughts about physical imperfections which are relentless, could someone tell me please if these obsessive thoughts about a physical imperfection I have a symptom of anxiety/depression/ocd? There have been time in the last 6 months where I have felt better, and ive been told if you have some benefit from cit then it is working otherwise you wouldn't get any benefit at all. Im pretty scared tbh, im having a lot of suicidal thoughts, which are strong. There was a period just before christmas where my obsessive thoughts disappeared for a few days, it felt fantastic, I felt "normal" for once. Ive also had my ESA terminated and have had to go on JSA which is hard as I get publicly humilated by peolpe who have no idea how I feel. Im doing my best to "get on with life" but it appears to be getting tougher and tougher, can cit take longer than 6 months to work? Am I just feeling extra low because I upped my dose recently? Is cit working for me as I have felt some good times on them but with me it may just take a longer time? Any help would be greatly apappreciated, thank you..... Luke

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    Hey Luke i'm really sorry for what you are going through i suffer with obbsesive thoughts /OCD mine is Harm OCD and can be terrifying but you have to remember these are just thoughts it is not what is actually happening you liek me need to be seen my a clinical pycologist who will give you approriate CBT training to help deal with OCD and Obbsseive thoughts in 7 out of 10 patients it really helps obviously OCD and all of these other problems are onset buy Anxiety and deppression but it is treatable citolapram will help with the anxiety but often it is not enough on its own to help with OCD i myself have been on citolapram for 26 days now i feel a little better but i am now aware that i have OCD and clearly the CBT is the way to go although it should be said evrytime you increase your dose of citolapram it can take weeks for the body to level out so dont quite my friend i have had days where i wished i wasnt here some horrible thoughts but it will get better take it day buy day and you will get there the medicine will work some people say it takes 3-4 months to even feel anything others feel great after one tablet it varieys from person to person so keep ya chin up buddy and somthing i have noticed i feel a lot worse now then when i started the tablets 3 weeks n but this is common teh anxiety will increase before you get better it is actually a gd sign the medication is going to work.

    and has for the physical imperfections mate try to look at it in a diffrent way no one is perfect if somone wants to be a moron and ridicule you for an imperfection what does it say about the imperfection on there own mind you are who you are dont ever be ashamed and never ever quite hold ya head up high and keep going because your going to get through this just remeber OCD is treatble ever need a chat message me on here and ill get back to ya stay safe fella peacee.

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      Thanks Ben, My mum passed away 2 years ago on sat 28th feb which probably hasnt helped. I have seen improvement but in a strange way that can make me feel worse as I get fleeting glimpses of how good my life can be only to get taken back to hell on earth, I have an understanding girlfriend and good family and friends but im merely existing at the moment. Sometimes I feel like I have anxiety/depression/ocd BECAUSE of my imperfection, this is just a nonsense anxious thought isnt it? As I said just before Christmas these thoughts disappeared, albeit temporarily, so that gives a bit of hope, also ive been told the journey of recovery is a very up and down affair, but my god the downs are hard to deal with.
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    .......forgot to say ben, I used to have the harm ocd really bad, it was always aimed at my mum and girlfriend....... the people I loved the most, but cit worked wonders regards that, its just the bloody one imperfection obsessive thought that is ruining my life, Luke
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      Hope so mate i get it really bad with my Mum and Broter i had issues for years been stuck in he house for 4 years because i was scared i was a pyscho now i been reading abotu this harm OCD it all fits into place and i hope the cit works it seems to be gotta give it time to settle.

      But has far has you go mate of course its a nonsense anxious thought seriosuly no one will ever be perfect and what ever imperfection you have what does it matter would you abuse somone if they had 8 arms it doesnt change who they are people that judge or mae jokes because of that do so because they are so insecure in themselves they dont want people to draw attention to there imperfections so they pick on others and them sort of people arnt worth you worrying abotu because there opinions do not matter.

      just keep going luke we both be ok in teh end even if there are times it doesnt feel like it theres always light at the end of the tunnel my friend evry night has a dawn and liek i said u have an off day and need a chat just drop a message and ill get back to ya take it easy mate peace.

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    Thanks again Ben, If I didnt get this obsessive thought my life would be great, but its there, 24/7, and it gets in the way of EVERYTHING, I sometimes wonder why I get it when there are people a million times worse than me physically. This genuinely feels like the only thing holding me back.
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      your welcome fella just remember the OCD is teh onset of anxeity just keep taking the citolapram let it setlle on the new dose and youll feel better and liek i said see if you can get OCD CBT with a clinical pyschologist and see whre it takes you i plan on doing so ill keep you informed on how it goes but theres gunne be good days and bad days mate just rember theres nothing that cant be done youll get there.
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    like so many if you are continually suffering with side effects from this drug then consult your GP should you not be happy with the GP response then get a second opinion.

    The longer you suffer the more likely that the effects will take longer to recover from!!

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