6 weeks in - a bit of humour
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Six weeks on from having a part of my body sawn off and taken out to be replaced forcefully by items from the periodic table I'm doing OK but as my teacher once said (OK not once, every school report) could do better.
It's almost 3am and here I am again replying to posts on this forum, most of which won't see the light of day due to either the site being rubbish or my iPad deciding that because it's older than four years it has to stop working and shut itself off to remind me that Apple products are not for life, just a few Christmases then it's time to replace.
When I'm not on this forum I'm playing games meant for six year olds, my fave at the moment it AlphaBetty - a "fun" spelling game for really little kids. Well I'm on level 25 and can't get past it. Some words it actually accepts even though I'm sure they don't exist but it makes me smile as it does accept all forms of swear words so I try to do as many of those as possible just to humour myself until the iPad crashes again.
I cannot get comfy in bed. My geriatric Persian cat who has not once sat on my lap voluntarily in the 15+ years we have had her has decided that she needs to be near my scar at all times day and night. Very sweet apart from the fact that she takes up a fair bit of room as she has to lay at a certain angle and as she's my only child I cannot possibly move her or wake her. When I'm laying on the sofa she gets on top of my operated hip and her full 14lb weight will contentedly purr away, again a bit sore but can't move my baby so hint at daddy having sweets for her and as she's greedy after a while she will seek him out. Most of the time she wants to kill him and he regularly has a bitten or scratched hand/face, although to be fair he does deserve it most of the time (shouldn't cuddle so tight).
Went for a walk around town with my mum today, first time out without any walking aid and it was great for half an hour then I started doing the Pengiun walk and got a bit sore. I'm surprised no one threw fish at me, I do rather a good impersonation. We then met my sister for lunch which was lovely as the sun was shining (so we had to sit in the shade because of my mums "tropical moments"
. I was looking forward to getting some sun on my lily white legs as they have been incased in the bloomin stockings for the last six weeks. Anyway lunch was lovely but sitting on wooden slats didn't do me much good as when we left I had changed my walk to monkey. I was glad to get home and rest.
That's another thing - "rest". The week or so following my op the other half was fairly good at helping out, you know - warming up a ready meal and acting like he made Christmas dinner from scratch. Washing up (how does it take him 35 mins to do what I can in five ?), hoovering (scaring the cat so she will take a swipe at next available opportunity) and changing my stockings. Yep he did ALL that and still managed to do his day job. Well now I'm doing everything again, cooking, cleaning, washing, dressing myself and I'm meant to be resting. It's like he had an out of body experience that won't be repeated. I'm sure he has vision that doesn't see dirt. As I couldn't get in the bath I thought I would wait and see how long it took him before he cleaned it - well let's just say I did it around the three week mark as you could have done graffiti in the mark around the side. Now I'm able to get in the bath again it's bliss - I won't take that for granted for at least a month.
So I'm "resting" my pain in the a*** and my aching leg in between my zoo impression walks and yes it's getting better day by day. I now have some sleeping tablets to take to try and break the cycle of being awake at this hour playing crappy games that make me feel thick (not taking them until Monday though - it's the weekend and I prefer wine to sleep). This forum and the amazing people have helped immensely and I couldn't imagine going through it without the support.
Anyway I know what you're all thinking - how have I managed to type such a long post ? Well I type it into Notes then Cut and Paste into here. Wish I'd thought about that ages ago so that I could have offered more support and a friendly ear. Honestly the witty remarks you have all missed because of the technology crashing are such a waste.
I will put the money I'm saving by not travelling to and from work towards another overpriced iPad - oh no I won't, sorry wine, I will put it towards wine. See can do better 
Sarah X X
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sarah97675
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Wide Awake Club here I am. Glass of milk - no, we haven't got enough so it's a glass of water, choccy snack - check, being consumed as I type (consumed), Volts of unwanted energy in legs and hands - check. ?? iPad brightness turned to minimum to stop me squinting - check.
Actually you can tell the seasons have changed as tonight I have donned my dressing gown and slippers before coming down. Bloody brave considering it's a spider season. I did give the gown a good shake before putting on but I wouldn't have been able to see a large bugger clinging on for dear life. Luckily no sign. 🕷
It was also a bit difficult to navigate myself onto the sofa as we (I during a moment of house cleaning madness where I decided I had to wash/dust every available surface of the house) have changed the lounge back to the way it was pre-op. We had positioned the recliner with pride of place and ample table surfaces for when I came home but now it's relegated back to where no-one sits on it apart from at Christmas and so on when it gets to feel like a proper "part of the furniture". You see I can't turn the light on as we are pretty open plan and even though a major storm or full on police raid wouldn't wake him I bet your bottom dollar a bit of light would so I don't risk it. It would be "why don't you come back to bed and try to get some sleep babe" because although I have explained the rules of Wide Awake Club no one who hasn't experienced it can understand. "It's alright love I'm just going to stay down here until 3am eating crap and writing a load of nonsense to fellow hippies whilst I have an internal firework party going on and then I'm going to try and beat all the pre-school children on a level of AlphaBetty". See it doesn't sound right when voiced aloud.
Bless him. I told him my leg ached earlier so he spent ages massaging some smelly heat cream into it. It was lovely and meant that he got the stinky hands, not me. We call it Tigers after Tiger Balm which I used before my shoulder surgery. Every heat cream is now called Tigers. So say I go up before him and rub some in he will come in the room and say "are there tigers in the bed tonight" or "I can smell tigers". 🐯
Had a lovely lazy day with the cat today. I bought her a self heating pad thingy for her birthday (which isn't for another two weeks but I was excited to see her reaction and also she's going to be 16 so every day counts). She loves it, as soon as she saw it she purred her head off like "it's for me mummy". She has been on it downstairs with me almost all day whereas she's normally asleep on the bed upstairs. She even had some Butternut, Lime and Chilli soup at lunchtime. Well she asked for it, only had a few kicks off the spoon though and her face was a picture 🐱. Bless her. She does like to see what I'm eating. Greedy like me.
Tomorrow is food shop day so we can try and locate the various items for a few hours and end up with seven missing items because we can't find them, at least they may have sorted the signs out now and the wine will actually be in the wine isle and not with the dairy products. I'm trying to decide on what I want for next weeks midnight snacks. Mini Cheddars are a good one but the packet makes a noise and the cat will come down and want half of them. I'm thinking low fat/calorie, noiseless, easy to carry and eat in the dark. I know, bananas. 🍌. They are supposed to help you sleep as well, even through prescription strength drugs won't do the job you never know. Knowing me they will sit in the bowl, judging me when I'm eating chocolate, they will be pouring scorn in my direction making me feel guilty. Also, as I can't stand waste I will end up eating them black and mushy when I don't want anything to eat rather than binning them. Maybe I will just buy three child size ones for trial purposes. I wonder if the cat likes bananas - I've seen a video on Facebook of a cat eating one, will have to try.
Is it just me with the snacks ? I'd love to know what you guys are munching on in the small hours. Right, off to waste the length of time it takes to lose five lives on AlphaBetty. Wish me luck.
noplaybarbie sarah97675
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linda38528 sarah97675
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Another wonderful post - thank you so much.
I love the snapshots of your 'child' ... brings back many super memories.
I must say - I hadn't thought of the magnesium in the bananas - must try it.
I have been creating a pre-2nd thr list - for hospital and home and there have been some excellent contributions for these recently.
My newest midnight snack is coconut chips which come in a variety of flavours. I like natural and Cheeky Chocolate the most although the occasional pinch of Wasabi ones are good too. Hungry buddha brand has the best I think.
Please keep us 'posted' on your midnight (and other) ramblings - a wonderful tonic.
Hugs,
L
tina_83799 sarah97675
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Rocketman_SG6UK tina_83799
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Oh how I remember the early days - putting the cat's bowl down with the grabber and dropping it just after I had filled it up.
sarah97675
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Well I got my sleeping stuff from Holland and Barratt - the lovely girl in there really knew her stuff so I got something called Melissa Dream and some Bach rescue night droplets. Took them last night and slept well on and off. I'm waking due to pain though.
Tonight taken again and got off to sleep really easily but this is the second time I've woken - again due to pain so I'm going to read a couple of chapters of my book and try again. Probably my own fault I'm in pain today though. Did a 2.3 mile country walk, some uphill and then when playing with my five year old niece I was picking her up turning her upside down. She probably weighs three stone ? Not my best idea to date. Also I've been standing a lot in the kitchen today cooking. A woman's work is never done !
The shop on Saturday wasn't too bad, only forgot three items. Everything was where they said it would be. Got three tiny bananas as planned and just eaten one. No the cat doesn't like banana. She looked at me like I was barking mad - she backed right away. It was a little on the green side though. I may try again when they are a bit riper.
The iPad is seriously on its was out. It keeps turning itself off, like a technology suicide. I feel like I ought to take it to Dignitas to help end its suffering but I need it too much. Maybe it's all this nocturnal typing upsetting it's sleeping pattern. Maybe when I've sorted my sleep issues out it will start acting normally again. I hope so as I cannot be arsed to set myself up all over again. What will happen to my games ? Can I transfer them ? I can't start AlphaBetty from level one again, I know I'm only on level twenty nine but it's taken ages to get there. There are only so many times I can be defeated by a game meant for little people.
I will keep using the Melissa Dream and report back. So far better than the prescription sleeping tablets with no side effects and nasty chemicals. They could take a while to work I suppose - Amazon reviews really good.
patricia72715 sarah97675
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Wish we had a Holland and Barrett around here. I did e-mail them after we talked about another medicine but they said they we unable to ship to Pa.
?The USA sometimes has some strange rules about importing drugs, even herbals and many of the store here know very little about the herbal meds that they are offering.
?You're so lucky to have someone who actually kows about her products and can advise you well. Will try to find Melissa Dream though.
?Be well, Sarah.
dorothy04749 patricia72715
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patricia72715 dorothy04749
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Hi Dorothy. I found Melissa Dreams on Amazon from a company called NATURALIFE.IE. It says it's in UK. Are you familiar with this company? Are they reputable? The ingredients seem to contain ingredients often used for sleep, along with some vitamins. Think I'll give it a try.
dorothy04749 patricia72715
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Vettech1215 sarah97675
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Sarah! I wish u less zoo impression walks and more sleep! I'm 18days out and so emotional have you had any issues in that area? I really enjoyed your post and the fact that I relate to most of it
Makes me feel like I know u and all of our other hippies in this forum take care
sarah97675 Vettech1215
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Sorry to hear you are feeling like that but I think it's normal. I know a couple of people who have had depression during their operation recovery. It's OK to feel down and emotional - we have had something big done that's had a major impact on our lives.
Hopefully it's only a temporary feeling and once recovered and back in routine you will be your old self. I don't feel like me at the moment but I'm sure when I'm back to work and sleeping normally again (can't come soon enough - sleep not work) I will be back to normal, whatever that was.
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Rocketman_SG6UK sarah97675
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So right there Sarah,
There were times I felt depressed, and I had never ever had any form of depression before. As you say, it's not uncommon.