66 Peri menopause / Menopause Symptoms you may experience which may help some ladies
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SIXTY-SIX PHYSICAL SYMPTOMS: Part one 1 - 49
These are very real physical changes and conditions. Some symptoms alarm a woman that she may be suffering from a serious disease. Perhaps you know the more common ones related to menopausal symptoms in this list. But many of these may surprise you, as they have not been typically associated with this normal physiological transformation.
1. Change in Menstrual Cycle, Cycles may get closer together or farther apart, lighter and shorter in duration or much heavier, lasting longer than one has been accustomed to. Menses may seem to take forever to begin with dark spotting for days until you actually flow, or you might feel like you have your menses every two weeks.
2. Menstrual Flooding can come on with sudden onset and feel like you may hemorrhage to death. Or it can be a gradual build up just when you think your menses will end and you start gushing for days. Flooding commonly accompanies the woman with uterine fibroids as she transits into menopause.
3. Headaches, Migraines, especially before, during or at the end of your menses debilitate and radically interferes with normal functioning.
4. Decreased Motor Coordination, Clumsiness, almost begins to make the woman who experiences this feel like she is certainly less than graceful during perhaps an already awkward period in her life.
5. Lethargy, a persistent feeling sluggishness physically and mentally, that seems to negate ones ability to do much.
6. Physical Exhaustion , and Crushing Crashing Fatigue that can come on so suddenly and grip you into feeling like you will collapse unless you stop this instant.
7. Exacerbation of any Chronic Illness or Existing Condition transpires as hormones decline or deviate from their normal balance.
8. Insomnia, this includes a new or unusual pattern of either difficulty falling asleep, or dropping off to sleep for a few hours and then awakening with the inability to return to sleep.
9. Sleep Disturbances sometimes are from nightmares, night sweats, or just a vague sense of restlessness keeping you up or disrupting your precious revitalizing retreat from this realm of responsibilities.
10. Night Sweats often begin between a woman?s breasts, initially a night or two before her menses, waking her from sleep, later more profoundly disturbing with up to total body saturation, followed by damp or sweat drenched chills.
11. Interference With Dream Recall interrupts the sense of normal sleep, if you are someone accustomed to vivid or at least some detailed memory of your dreamtime.
12. Muscle Cramps can occur anywhere in the body from legs to back to neck, and sometimes reflects the need for more calcium, or simply that your progesterone levels are too low.
13. Low Backache often worsens before or during menses, but if your hormones remain at low levels, you can experience it on a regular basis.
14. Gall Bladder Symptoms of pain, spasms and discomfort felt in the right upper abdominal quadrant under the ribs, which may be accompanied by belching, bloating, and intolerance to certain foods reflect the increased liver load with declining hormones.
15. Frequent Urination, or sensations that mimic urinary infections is a disturbing symptom often unrelieved by actual urination. It is often experienced as the sensation of needing to urinate all the time, even immediately afterwards.
16. Urinary Incontinence, the uncontrollable and spontaneous loss of urine, or the Urge for Incontinence, can occur suddenly or feel continuous, and not only in response to coughing, sneezing, jumping or running.
17. Hypoglycemic Reactions happen when suddenly your blood sugar crashes and you must have food now.
18. Food Cravings, often for sweets or salty foods, but can include sour or pungent foods.
19. Increased Appetite, especially at night and after dinner contributes to that unusual and unwanted weight gain.
20. Dark Circles Under Eyes can also be caused by adrenal exhaustion and thyroid dysfunctions, but no amount of sleep seems to eliminate it.
21. Joint and Muscle Pain, Achy, Sore Joints, Muscles and Tendons, which sometimes develop into actual carpal tunnel syndrome, or give rise to the questioning of other disease possibilities.
22. Increased Tension in Muscles demonstrates itself in those hunched up shoulders as you work or talk about anything uncomfortable, along with promoting lower back pain and a stiff neck.
23. Increased Hair Loss or Thinning anywhere on body, including your head, armpits, pubic area.
24. Increase in Facial Hair especially under your chin, or along your jaw line. It may be defined by generalized hair growth, or a specific and coarse single strand of hair that pokes out, even curls.
25. Unusually Hair Growth, around Nipples, between Breasts, down your back, places where your hair was finer, less coarse.
26. Acne, quite disturbing to any woman who dealt with this in adolescence and never thought it would recur.
27. Infertility causes grief in the woman who postponed pregnancy in her earlier years and now wishes to conceive, carry to term a healthy baby, and discovers she is unable to do so.
28. Loss of Breast Tissue begins with the decrease of progesterone production. Women often feel as though their breast have become empty sacs devoid of their normal fullness, with or without sagging.
29. Breast Soreness/Tenderness/Pain/ Engorgement and swelling, occurs particularly a few days to one week before bleeding actually begins, which usually potentiates complete relief of any pain or swelling.
30. Painful, or tender nipples have been described as this exquisite localized pain only in the nipples and suggests estrogen excess.
31. Cold Extremities feels quite strange especially in the presence of a hot flash, the combination of which is not impossible.
32. Being Accident Prone, bumping into things, not even realizing it until the bruise reveals itself later and then lacking the ability to recall the causative incident feels perplexing and a little scary at the prospect of something more damaging.
33. Hot flashes initially may be described as mild to severe flushes of heat waves, and for some women these evolve into intense outbreaks of sudden heat with sweating and turning bright red all over.
34. Loss of Sexual Energy, our Libido, can be marked by a gradual or sudden disinterest in sex, to the development of an actual aversion.
35. Painful Sex often described as if one?s vagina would tear open at the point of penetration along with feelings of abrasion during intercourse.
36. Vaginal Dryness, Irritation, sometimes accompanied by a consistent unusual discharge - typically odor free, negates a woman?s ability to be sexually active, or able to enjoy or be comfortable in her body.
37. Dizziness, feeling lightheaded and the loss of physical balance, and even a bit wobbling at times, requires pause in movement to prevent falling over or deepening into vertigo or feeling faint.
38. Ringing in the Ears, Tinnitus, can be experienced as a pulsing sensation, a whooshing sound, an almost musical or buzzing sound with a fuzzy sensation.
39. Abdominal Bloating comes on suddenly often after eating, or seems to be all the time, and can be visibly evident making you feel that you look like you are pregnant.
40. Weight Gain disturbs most women, particularly when it seems to happen over a couple of days, settles in the waist, buttocks and thighs, promoting a visceral thickening from the waist down, the classic middle-aged figure.
41. Fluid Retention, Edema, commonly with swelling in the legs and ankles, though not limited to this area and it is unrelieved by urination.
42. Palpitations or Heart Racing usually comes on suddenly, without warning or provocation, and dissipates spontaneously. The experience can be so wild and intense that a woman may become alarmed and wonder if she is having a heart attack.
43. Irregularities in your Heart Rate may feel more like your heart has just done a flip-flop or skipped a beat.
44. Constipation/Diarrhea, intermittent or alternating, results from declining hormone levels, which increase the demands on liver function and alters intestinal motility.
45. Tendency towards Candidiasis can increase, even if you have no prior known history ? and if you do, it may worsen.
46. Gastrointestinal Distress, Increased Flatulence, Unrelieved Gas pains, Indigestion, Nausea all can reflect intestinal changes due to hormonal imbalances.
47. Slow Digestion often goes along with the bloat ? what previously took four to five hours to digest, now seems to take all night. It seems worse in the evenings.
48. Lack of Appetite may be experienced as more of a lack of interest in food, going to the frig and standing there with the door open and staring blankly. Feeling completely uninspired, you busy yourself with something else and forget that you need to eat.
49. Changes in Body Odor especially disturbing when it seems to focus in the groin area, but can be anywhere on the body.
50. Puffy Eyes, not only from sleep disturbances, but also can accompany low progesterone.
51. Facial Pallor alternating with Facial Flushes is often intermittent with hot flashes.
52. Flare up of Arthritis worsens with low progesterone levels and increase sugar intake.
53. Loss of Bone Density, Osteoporosis, is not only an elderly woman?s disease, though it seems to develop over an extended period and is triggered by the decline of hormone production.
54. Dry Hair, Change in Skin Tone, Integrity, and Texture, becomes more wrinkled, and may begin the thinning process.
55. Changes in your Fingernails characterized by easy breakage, bending, cracking and getting softer.
56. Itchy, Crawly Skin with a strange sensation like insects crawling around under the skin ? quite different than the dry skin feeling.
57. Muscle tone seems to slack and sag, and loose its previous response to normal exercise.
58. Pelvic Pain can be random and independent of cycles and may feel continuous for some women.
59. Dry, Itchy Eyes felt in the deep posterior aspect of the eye socket, as well as superficially.
60. Teeth Aching or the experience of a strange sensation in one?s teeth or gums, often accompanied by an increase in bleeding gums.
61. Change in the normal Tongue sensation, which can be accompanied by a feeling of burning in your tongue and roof of mouth, malodorous breath or change in breath odor, and/or a bad taste in your mouth.
62. Memory Loss or Lapses in time, makes one feel disoriented and less focused, especially when you go into another room to get something specific and seconds later cannot remember what you went to retrieve.
63. Feeling Faint for no known reason (this does not include standing up too quickly)
64. Tingling in Extremities not only feels weird and like your hands or feet are falling asleep, but if persistent can be a symptom of diabetes, B12, potassium or calcium deficiency, or a compromise in blood vessel flexibility.
65. Sensation of Electrical Stimulation,or Shock occurring in the tissue under the skin, and may signal you that a hot flash will begin.
66. Increase and worsening of Allergies occurs as hormones become imbalanced, so can our immune system.
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Junglechicken jayneejay
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Anyone else suffer with de-hydration if they have had night sweats the night before?
Its as though the body hasn't caught up with re-balancing of fluid levels.
?Just found that today.....I went to the loo, and my urine was a dark yellow/almost green (I take a lot of B Vits - Thiamin etc., which cause the urine to go a funny colour).
?Hate the whole thing.....am also about to get my period, and so everything has been thrown out of whack.
Keljo48 jayneejay
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Hello,
I believe I am in peri menopause or nearing the end of it? What's on the other side of that? Scary thought.
I am 49 and will be 50 in a few months. 2018 has not been kind to me. Not only have had expensive plumbing issues, I had/have what I believed was a yeast infection. I couldn't get a timely appointment with my Dr so I decided to use Monistat 3. It was one of the worst mistakes I have ever made (and I have made some doozies). I burned and swelled up and was in such horrible pain, I was miserable. I ended up going to the ER because I was afraid there was something really wrong with me. The Dr looked but didn't do a pap. Said it looked like a yeast infection (hard to tell with all the red inflamed mess that used to be my vulva area. My words not hers). I wanted to grab her by the jacket and say. "Give me something for this, I don't care, tranquilizer...euthanize me. Put me out until this is over. SOMETHING. Nope, she gave me a Diflucan and sent me on my way. My poor husband didn't even know what to do with me. I was a sobbing, whining, suffering mess. That next day I called my Dr and begged for an appt that day. Nope. I waited 4 days to see my Dr. Then she didn't even have any pap swabs. They were out.(Of course they were out, and I am petty enough to say I hated her at that moment). By this time the Monistat had worn off and I wasn't such a swollen mess. But I was in discomfort. She also did a looksee and said yes, I believe it is a yeast infection. She confirmed that over the counter treatments have been known to have that effect. (Why isn't that in bold print on the box?) Googling, I find that I was among many that had this reaction to that cream.
So forward to today. I had a root canal last tuesday. (Yes, sometimes tooth aches aren't just peri symptoms). My first root canal. My Dr had put me on flagyl for a hypothetical BV (remember she didn't do a pap) and I took that horrid pill for 4 days before I had to call and say no more. My mouth dried out and I felt like crap.She also gave me 2 days of Diflucan. I should have been on an antibiotic before my root canal, but since I was on Flagyl my dentist didn't want to risk a super infection being on multiple pills. So I didn't start antibiotics until the day of my root canal. My husband assured me it would be a walk in the park (yeah if I was being mugged in that park maybe) and I would be as good as new after. (Liar, Liar. This is my life after all.) I am still having tooth pain six days later. Not horrible, but I don't eat on that side of my mouth because of the discomfort/irritation. Then to add insult to injury...
I went back into my Dr today because I had started to get yeast infection symptoms again.I had been taking probiotics diligently trying to stave off the issue. I had a couple days scant amount of light brown discharge. (I haven't had a period since October 2017 and then it was about a week of light brown discharge/ bleeding). This time I have had cramping, especially after my pap. My Dr, says that is indicative of BV. But I have no odor and she said it looks like yeast on my cervix. So she has given my a suppository prescription for nine days. Of course my pharmacist only had one box of the three on hand. So I have to go in tomorrow afternoon to pick up the other boxes. I should know the results of my pap in three or four days.
I have still problems with dry mouth at night. My gums are sore I think because of a dry tongue abrading my gums in the middle of the night. I have to sip water and I use Biotene which helps somewhat. It really only affects me at night. I drink plenty of water. I don't drink caffeine at all anymore. I live the dullest life imaginable. I now feel I have to second guess everything I eat or drink. My skin is dry, I feel shriveled up and depressed. I am so paranoid over my health I expect things to be dire. Then to make myself even more pathetic. I now live in an area where I don't have any friends or family, except my husband, who bless his heart, I am sure doesn't want to come home. I mean what will be waiting for him? Frankenstein's monster,
Dr Jekyll, or someone slightly more rational but still someone I don't even know anymore. Through all this we find out one of our two dogs has advanced liver cancer. We don't have human children. My two dogs are sisters and I don't even know what my other dog will do without her sister of 10 years. So I have been watching my dog (who acts like herself for the most part) waste away from cancer, until we know it is too much for her. So my heart is breaking.
Sorry I am just a depressing mess. When you have health issues, and peri menopause...it just makes it harder to deal with, well everything. Then I worry I am becoming a hypochondriac or maybe more that I will be labeled a hypochondriac. I don't know.
Why can't they just come up with a safe effect pill to make me the old me again?
elaine16907 Keljo48
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Wishing you the best x
Keljo48 elaine16907
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No, I am not on any supplements. I take BP meds and Lipitor for high cholesterol. I am about 45lbs overweight but I cannot seem to lose anything but a pound or two. Which doesn't help my self esteem. I do take probiotics especially while on the antibiotics that dentist put me on. The antibiotics are over with now, but my Dr has given me a vaginal suppository for a yeast infection. I have a dentist appointment today to address the issue with my gums and the irritation/sensitivity with the crown that I had the root canal on. I have weird bumps on the roof of my mouth under the skin that my tongue just CAN'T leave alone and I am driving myself nuts. I can't help thinking I have something seriously wrong with me. Constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I am so paranoid, worried and depressed over my health. My husband is so over me whining and stressing.
My dad...he is in his 70's and is the "Suck it up Buttercup" mentality. Either that or he counters with the health issues of the 70"s. Like I am competing! lol My brother is a surgical nurse, (the worse person to ask for advice, tells me to go see a doctor) he is taking care of my mother who has dementia so that is the extent of our conversations. Which makes me miss my mom, but she doesn't really know me when we talk. They all live 800 miles from me back in my hometown. I haven't lived there for 25 years but I grow more homesick.
I don't work, I don't feel I belong. I am the product of my own failings. I have followed my husband around the country with the Marine Corp and now he is retired but working in an area I dislike. I am a million miles from who I thought I would be and it feels like peri and my health are beating me down. I cannot stop crying. I never used to cry and now I cannot go a day without sobbing.
I really feel pathetic. I so appreciate you and everyone of you ladies on here. This site has kept me from the proverbial ledge.
I am just a mess. Sometimes I feel if there is a light at the end of my tunnel it is probably the headlights of a speeding semi. lol.
I need to start walking, but to be honest it is hard to get out of bed and get motivated. I don't know of any women's groups where I am.
maria_03422 Keljo48
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Hi Keljo
You are not alone!! My situation similar to yours ...I quit working after my kids left home my husband moved us to a small town 3 hours away from home, he goes to the office all day and i stay home feeling sorry for my self!! Missing my kids, my old life and keep seating analyzing and worry about my health ...I'm swing with horrible nightmares the last week , and the past 2 days one minute i wake up soaked in sweat and the next I get freezing cold....I'm so scared ...
Feel better
Xxxxx
elaine16907 Keljo48
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There's alot going on for many of us and I do understand some of things your going through. I've had recent gum irritation around a crown that I has just come out of the blue my dentist was not too concerned for now. I felt unable to mention could this be a perimenopausal symptom (wasn't comfortable) these symptoms are taking over my life,
It feels draining worrying about your health every minute of the day and takes its toll. You really aren't alone.
The duration of going through these symptoms without really finding answers is so hard and stressful and I have found it so hard to get help when you need it. Thankful for this forum.
Your right movitation is limited I know I just feel no get up and go!!
Please hang on in there as Im sure all the ladies here are trying to do x
ImagineOneDay Keljo48
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Sending you big HUGS Keljo. Please don't forget YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Let's communicate here to keep ourselves sane and away from. The very edge. Hugs hugs
Eliaimee1970 Keljo48
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Eliaimee1970 Keljo48
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Keljo48 Eliaimee1970
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I still have the irritation and slight burning. My doctor prescribed me terconazole suppositories 80mg. When I went to pick up my script there were three boxes even though my pharmacist only had one in stock. The script says every night at bedtime as prescribed by prescriber. Well, she never said to do nine of them. Everything I read it is one box which is 3 doses. I tried calling and still haven't got a response I did 2 boxes. It just doesn't seem right and I feel she should have told me directly how many doses I was supposed to do. It seems like since then I have had the continuous cramp/ache. My last dose was Friday. I still have the issue. I don't know if I actually have a yeast infection or a BV or something else. I itched while I took that medication and befoe. I haven't been itching but I still have the irritation/burn feeling. I took the pill (Diflucan)after I tried to stupidly treat myself with Monistat 3. I was in torment after that. Couldn't see my doctor until that next Wed (this was a thursday). I went to the ER, she did a looksee and prescribed me one Diflucan pill. I then called my doctor on Monday and begged to be seen. She instead prescribed two more Diflucans, sight unseen. Then on Wed prescribed me Flagyl incase it was BV.. I took those for 4 days and asked to come off them, it's a wicked pill not to mention I had to have a root canal and needed to go on antibiotics for that. So the antibiotics for 6 days and I ended back in yeast infection/BV hell. Also I was really sick with the flu in November and my doctor put me on 14 days of antibiotics. I ate sweets at Christmas time so I was a bomb just waiting to go off. Now I don't do sugar, I drink a kefir like probiotic drink, I take probiotics. My doctor finally did a pap last Monday. That is when she gave me the Terconazole for yeast infection. Her thinking maybe the pill didn't work for me. Though I was on antibiotics after that pill. I am still waiting on my pap. I am so upset with my doctor. My GYN appt is two weeks away, I postponed my mammogram until next Wed because frankly I just don't have it in me to deal with that tomorrow.
My husband wants to take me into the ER. He is coming home from work. I kept him awake last night with my sobbing. I even went out in the other room so as not to disturb him further.
I can completely sympathize with you. I mean why prescribe something without culture or verification? Bacterial Vaginosis (BV) is also very common and can in my experience mimic yeast infection. Itching. burning, irritation. I had no odor last time and I had a BV not a yeast infection. Though my doctor originally thought it was a yeast infection and treated it as such until my pap came back. No yeast, but a BV. Got the right meds at that time and was good. I also did a ACV soak bath too. Added ACV to water to about hips and soak in it. It helped me. Though I admit I am afraid to try anything at this time anymore.
P.S. My Dr's MA just called and said they haven't got my pap yet back but called them and said they had to send some of it out for test. OH GOD!!!! This scares me. I told her that sounded dire. She said it just means some of the test she ordered had to be sent out. She said they were going to fax the info to them. I am hoping she will let me know later today. Explained again about the constant cramp/ache for 8 days. She either noted it or just uh ummmed me, I don't know.
I am praying you find relief Eliaimee!
mary27278 Keljo48
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Keljo48 mary27278
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Exactly! I am afraid to try anything anymore for fear of making it worse. Ibuprofen has helped my cramp/ache and I am not sure if it is my uterus or my bladder though I am getting twinges in what feels like my ovaries. I now it is the end of the day here and I realize my Doctor's MA isn't going to get back to me again today with my pap results. I have been waiting since last Monday. I am beyond my wits end. My Doctor gave me Clotrimazole and Betamethasone Dipropionate (that's a mouthful) awhile back for to sooth burning and pain. There is a whole bunch of warnings about this cream. I was afraid to use it. I told my doctor about the warnings and she poo pooed them saying that is if you abuse it. I should of said you use it and get back to me. lol. So I used a tiny scant amount and it felt a weird burn. I didn't like it. I am sensitive to medication anyway. So I used diluted ACV (1 part ACV and 3 parts water) I subscribe to the less is more theory. It worked temporarily. I just used it on the outside not interior vagina. (I tend to leave that area alone, it causes me enough problems).
I am so depressed and consumed by this issue. I stopped using fabric softener on my undies and I only use non perfumed laundry soap. I don't notice a difference. This is really all consuming. Today wasn't as bad as yesterday, I think the ibuprofen is dulling my cramp/ache. But I feel like this whole thing is controlling my life and I hate it.
My husband suggested benadryl or nyquil. Um no, if it doesn't kill the pain I don't want to feel loopy. He is now realizing how bad this is effecting me because I just cry every night. Nights are worse for me anyway my symptoms keep me from a good nights sleep.
I really feel for you Mary. I hope you feel better soon. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
Eliaimee1970 Keljo48
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leslie95604 Keljo48
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At least you didn't destroy the livingroom like I did today. I threw the coffee table, chucked about 20 dvds all over the place, threw my husband's gun!!! Massive tantrum. I can't take this any longer. 4 years on a couch is too long. Either live as in participate in life, or die already. God I hope my mood switches tomorrow.
Keljo48 leslie95604
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Oh, I have been a hormonal monster. I have put a hole into a door throwing a thesaurus of all things.(I guess I just couldn't find the words to express myself). I took a chunk out of our wood floor, dented a wall pounding on it. Slammed countless doors. Then I am upset at the damage I caused. I have screamed and thrown tantrums that my neighbors are half afraid to talk to me. I have heaped vile stuff on my husband for his many failings. (conveniently forgetting my own) He is just waiting for my head to spin around. I have want to go outside and scream at the top of my lungs at times. But I know I will probably be taking a ride in a sheriff's car. lol. So I can understand your mood. I am now at the quiet, crying misery which I know is scaring my husband. He is used to the fighter side of me. He never knows what he will come home to anymore. But I can't help it. I am just so depressed. My house is a mess, I used to do crafts in my lovely craft room they are piled high and the room remains dark. I have no motivation to get out of bed except to have to let my dogs out and feed them. I feel like I am living in burning, irritated, aching hell and there is no end in sight for me.
I want to get a t-shirt that says "Warning: hormonal rage can happen at anytime. Please move to a safe distance" Actually that could be a good bumper sticker.
Keljo48 mary27278
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Mary how did your appt go? I have developed burning sensation in my groin, butt and the back of my legs. Feels like it should be hot to the touch but it isn't. It is maddening. I am losing sleep from this. The back of my legs had the burning sensation almost to my knees last night. Now it is just centered around my groin and my butt. I cannot take much more of this and I STILL haven't got the results from my pap from last Monday. I don't even know what to do anymore.
I hope you found good news and relief.
leslie95604 Keljo48
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Can I just give you a big fat hug!! We're living parallel lives honestly. I, too, have an art room that is piled high with lingering ideas collecting dust. My creative mind is thankfully intact, but zero motivation to dive in. None. My creative talents are such a large part of my identity and joy. Being held captive by whatever the hell this is, interrupting my zest for living is cruel and an abomination as far as I am concerned. Today I am not the absolute monster I was yesterday and have no idea why. Last night I got snippy at my unbelievably patient husband for putting pepper in the soup he spent a good part of the afternoon making FOR ME with his left hand only because his right arm is in a sling due to shoulder replacement surgery he had two weeks ago. What kind of a horrid witch am I???!!! My gawd! Here he is recovering from major surgery whilst I am throwing a WWIII fit over pepper in soup that he made for me. It kills me Kel. It just kills me these tirades! I can not stand myself. Frank is the most mannerful, accommodating, kindhearted man to walk the planet and he insists on sticking it out with this wretched mess of a wife. I am only weeks away from getting onto BHRT. I am determined to do this for Frank. It's just terrible what I (imbalanced hormones) have put us both through. I hope your mood has waned a bit and relieved some of the heaviness. If I may ask? Are you in peri or post? Or do you know? Kel, just knowing that I am not alone in acting out these regretful behaviors is a help to me. I can only feel love and understanding for you reading your words. That helps me to turn a bit of that around onto myself. Meno is truly difficult. I pray my lighter mood will continue. . . Lord only knows. Hugs dear heart.
ImagineOneDay leslie95604
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Hi, I am the same with creativity. I run arts&crafts sessions for kids that kind of help me use my creativity at some degree. But beside that I have got my own creative ideas that seems to be on hold. Some boxes of drift wood, fabric, beads, wool, wood, foil.. ypu name it...just waiting for the right time and it never comes. I am 48 and perimenapause. Yes, unfortunately I can be abusive to my husband too. I hope this will all be over tomorrow and we get our lives back and just enjoy. Hug to you all.
Keljo48 leslie95604
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Leslie, a huge hug right back! I am actually (dare I say it?) feeling better today. Cramp, ache thing has all but gone, I am thinking a phantom period? Let's go with that. Because I got nothing else.
Though go figure, I somehow sat wrong in the car maybe, now have a right sore hip. Who knows with me? Anymore I feel like I could sneeze and dislodge an organ. So I am hobbling around a bit like I am 70 instead of 49. I am in peri I haven't had a period since Oct/17. But they are spacing farther and farther apart and my symptoms seem to get stronger when they come on. Or maybe it is my intolerance level.
I still buy my craft stuff. I have been wondering around craft store listlessly looking and buying some things. I was making gnomes (among other things), and I owe my dad a "lucky" gnome. He fell and sprained his ankle. (grace runs in our family). He is convinced if I make him a "lucky" gnome he won't what? Fall? My father is impossible but I love that man. If there was such things as lucky gnomes, I would have them hanging around my neck.
Leslie, I so get you!!! I feel such kinship in the behavior regretting. Rage and regret my two companions I can't seem to shake. My husband, (even with his man flaws) does not deserve my behavior. He is a good man. He doesn't cook...or clean...um er or shop come to think of it. But he does take orders fairly well.
We have spent an inordinate amount of time together over the years moving with the military. So we have a kind of Fred and Ethel (from I love Lucy) marriage. I have kind of lost most of my humor in all of this "transition" phase of my life. I was the one who laughed a lot and smiled, and now I look like one of those dour matrons in the old photos. I don't even where make up anywhere. THAT IS SCARY!
My Dr's MA said she couldn't wait for peri menopause. I told her she had no idea what kind of hell her body could unleash on her. It isn't all hot flashes and no periods.
She tells me the results of my pap aren't back but a swab that says I have a BV came in. So...Dr has a prescription of metrogel if my symptoms warrant it. WHAT?? Since she has put me on a bunch of prescriptions without a proper diagnosis, now that I have one I can't get the meds. She feels I should let my system settle from all the YI meds and antibiotic (for my root canal) and prior horrible oral meds for a potential BV that I didn't finish when I had to go on antibiotics. I get it, I really do. The irony is being treated for hypothetical vaginosis' and then when I find out for sure that it is bacterial. I have been over medicated and now can't get the meds I really need. See... this is where my outrage could get out of hand. But, no I will wait for the results of my pap (which is obviously being delivered by snail). I will give the MA until 3pm on Friday to contact me with results, then all bets are off. (I so excel with useless threats.
Leslie, I am praying your lighter mood will be with you too.
I believe I am going to go walk (or hobble) in the sunshine for awhile.
Take care and hugs.
leslie95604 Keljo48
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Hi hon.
Oh the joys of hip pain. My right hip and abdomen flare up pretty regularly. Been scanned for it on a few occasions and of course there's absolutely nothing at all wrong. Mmhmm. Whatever.
You probably already know about the problems that trail antibiotics in the gut. Your gut flora is most likely imbalanced now leaving you more vulnerable to BV and YI. At least that's what I've learned from Google med school. I've earned a PhD in health anxiety. . .
Do you ever consider, maybe going the natural route with probiotics?
Gawd, aren't you just sick of focusing on health issues !!! I do hope this lingering problem you have is finally resolved though. Sheesh. Sounds it's been handled wrong, if not actually caused by incompetence. Let me know how that's going ok?
So you like to make gnomes huh? What do you make them from? Clay? Or fabric? Or? I've been really inspired by felt lately. I just peruse Pinterest and gaze at all the neato things made from felt. All the colorful things. I actually am able to feel a bit of wonderment seeping through when I look at the things people are creating. I really miss that feeling. Just like you I buy craft supplies here and there from time to time. I'm gearing up.
Funny you mentioned your dad being less than sure- footed. ( Sorry to hear he actually injured himself, poor guy :-( ) I tease my hubs about needing the "red bracelet" (they issue them at the hospital if you have problems with balance). Two years ago during hunting season he took a terrible fall. He was walking in the pitch dark trying to find a cell signal on is his stupid cell phone and stepped clean off of a 12` deep culvert, cracking his head open and busting 4 ribs and a punctured lung. He landed on his right ribs on top of large boulders knocked clean out. Yeah, he's definitely a member of the red bracelet club. He's Polish so he can take a pretty severe beating and recover. He'd probably trip over a gnome if I made one. Kidding.
I have been really struggling lately with digestive issues. (Great segway there) Had to drink Magnesium citrate this morning. Man does that stuff work. . . Too well.
Saw the gyn today and my BHRT is just around the corner. (yikes) Everything scares me. Even solutions scare me. I've changed in ways. I used to be carefree and energetic. I'm a helpless pile on a couch now. But I do silliness challenges with my sisters and their spouses periodically. We video ourselves doing extremely silly things and send it to the next couple who have to also do it, then they send us one we have to do. Last one was silk stockings pulled down over our heads silently staring into the camera. . . I refuse to allow this damned depression to murder my silliness. If I have to slide on the kitchen floor on my back to knock down stacked paper towel rolls like human bowling to keep my sanity, I WILL!!!! I think you would enjoy these silliness challenges. Desperate times call for desperate measures :-P Hope you're hanging in there hon. I appreciate your humor and truly understand the value. Hugs and smiles.
leslie95604 ImagineOneDay
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You're telling my story sister! People who aren't creative don't quite understand about how inspiration works. It's a wave you ride on, like a magic carpet. Depression chains you down. I may not be at the point yet where I can take action on my ideas, but my creative mind is thankfully still intact. Do you ever look at things on Pinterest? I'm more of a passenger nowadays in terms of my creative side where I used to be flying high way out in front. But even in this position I am able to access that place inside of me, you know the place that moves you because of a great color combination or a really clever idea. Pinterest allows me to at least stay tuned into that part of myself. I hope you and I and all creative women who are in the throes of depression will soon emerge and have an even deeper appreciation for our gifts. I wish there where a way on this site that we could share things each of us has created. What do you like making? I'd like to know. Hugs to you sweetie.
Keljo48 leslie95604
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Hey Leslie,
My dad is definitely a member of the red bracelet club. lol. All that for cell service? Geez, poor guy. lol.
You sound like my kind of people with the challenges. You all would be a riot. Sounds like great fun for beating the depression. My brother (who is a year older) and I used to laugh ourselves to tears. He has an ornery, wicked sense of humor. I really miss that.
My gnomes are made from socks of all things.They are really cute. Fat little gnomes. I am (was) trying to make tiny little gnomes from preemie socks. It's been a challenge. Not one I have been up for lately. I stalk pinterest and youtube craft channels. It's actually how we came up for my spectacular craft desk, took a pinterest idea, and expanded it. My darling husband made this marvel for me. It is right now buried under my craft shopping store hoards. I still have the spark but really no follow through now. Though I did make a cute Valentine heart wreath for my front door
Years ago, I bought magnesium citrate for constipation. I thought, hmmm this is really economical, and lemon lime flavor too. I drank half the bottle. It was as you said very effective - REALLY effective. For so little a price, that stuff packs a wallop and keeps on walloping.
Well on another note,
My stress and worry is through the roof at the moment. My lower pelvic pressure/ache is back and it has me really worried. It's been 12 days. Other than going to the ER (which I don't want to do) I don't know what else to do. I have an appt with my Doctor on Monday afternoon now. Gyn appt is in two weeks. (nothing to be done about that). I walked yesterday and that odd pressure/ache...IDK cramp feeling low (feels like my uterus) and I get twinges that I swear are my fallopian tubes. It is scaring the bejeezus out of me. I went up to the trails yesterday and walked but that issue bothered me the whole time. I would have cried (I am good at that lately) while I was walking but so many people pass by I didn't want to emotionally break in front of them. I did on the car ride home. I wonder why people give me clearance on the road?
I just called my Dr's MA's voicemail. That is all I can do other than ER and google. It seems could I have anything from Ovarian cancer, PID, Cervicitis, fibroid, or even a thing called Bartholin's abscess? etc. IDK, darn google. My kids have always been the four legged furry kind. I am sooooo not sexually active. I never had a problem until my pap. I had cramping after. I know I have a BV, I am scared it has progressed or something. This is not normal. I don't even think this is a peri symptom. It really effects me when I sit or walk. Ibuprofen is not working any longer. My worry and fear is making it worse, I am sure. But those two are my constant companions lately. Those two jerks follow me everywhere. I cannot even read without those two rearing their ugly heads. I would try to run from them, but knowing me I would probably just trip and fall. I want answers and it is depressing to think no one wants to help me. My pap results would be a good start, I am pretty sure I won't hear about those till next week now. I do take probiotics, multivitamin and a vitamin E with Selenium now. I have read conflicting reports that you can or can't get rid of a BV (more common that YI's) naturally. It seems to be split 50/50. I had one over a year ago. Did the metrogel for three days and then soaked in a ACV bath once and I didn't have anymore problems. Until now. The irritation isn't bothering me so much as my other issue.
On a better note, my hip stopped hurting. But in my bid to find a decent sleeping position I pulled a muscle in the side of my neck. lol Egads! I am just one step away from body parts start dropping off.
I went to the grocery last night and dumped my purse in the parking lot. I am definitely am my father's daughter. Geez. Nice young carry out man helped the peri menopausal brain fogger pick up her stuff. lol. I felt like such a toad.
Another day of the walking, talking disaster that is me.
Wishing you calm, peaceful horizons and a wonderful weekend. Hugs.