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Hi. I'm so sorry I've not been here for over a week but I couldn't look at my iPad until today when I'm feeling better. Well I've made it through the worst and not had a drink(apart from tapering down for 3 days on fosters which I hate!) for 8 days.
Horrendous first 3 days but managed to do it without getting hallucinations which I've had in the past when I went cold turkey). Was very very sick tho, even in bed yuk!, I hope that was the last time.
Over a litre of vodka for several days made me psychotic and went into black out for most of it. Did some terrible things, in hospital 3 times but they wouldn't detox me even tho my daughter told emergency services I was shouting and screaming over bad dreams and hallucinations.
Chesterfield are rubbish where alcohol is concerned. Dr not allowed to medicate as have to go through addaction (social services) took 3 weeks to even get appt then another 2 weeks for next appt. gave up on them and hospital.
with the kindness, love and help from my dear old parents I managed to stop. They never judged or gave up on me( previously I said everyone had given up on me but they were away on hols) plus 2 friends at the end of phone have kept my spirits up.
If they had not been there for me I think I'd be dead or extremely ill now.
Im determined not to go back to insanity and hell
Thank you to everyone who posted to me, I am so grateful..C x
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