9 years on ven then stoped and get back to hill now am on second month back to ven

hello, all what you mention is completely normal, and most people that go back onto the same ad, experience the same as you are. the mood swings are actually a positive sign. to come out of depression, usually means having to go back through anxiety. you alternate between the 2 states of depression and anxiety, but gradually each state becomes less severe, the fluctuations not so great, until you become more balanced. its like a see saw, slowly coming to a stop. at the start, ven brings you out of depression, and lifts your mood. however, your brain chemistry cannot cope with it, and you get anxious. the anxious state then puts you back into depression. as time goes on, ven builds up strength in your body, your brain chemistry changes for the better, the mood swings then stop, and for a while you can feel flat for a couple of weeks, then you start to feel better. youll still get ups amd dowms, but ups happen more often and last longer, and the opposite for the downs. like most people, anxiety is the last thing to dissapear, as happened to you last time. you are older now, with probably more pressure and responsibility and expectations, so your depression could well be worse than your first time. also, you will have forgotten the side effects from your first episode. one think i would say, starting on 75mg and then increasing by 75mg within a short period, can be a bit hard on a person. i started on 37.5mg earlier this year, and went up by 37.5mg to my current dose of 300mg. i experienced liitle in the way of side effects by going up by 37.5mg. max ven dose is generally considerred to be 225mg. so 75mg is 33% of max dose. most ads are increased in increments of 25% of max dose. i tried one increase of 75mg, for one day, didnt like it at all, so went down by 37.5mg something to bare in mind. theres no reason to think you will not recover like you did last time, especially as you recovered on a relatively low dose. its a huge gamble coming off an ad, when you recover, as its normally more difficult to recover. keep going. its going to take quite a while to feel good again. i do think increases in ven of 75mg are too brutal. you should be fine, no reason to think ven will not work for you second time around. ven has a bad reputation, but i love it, compared to the others ive been on. doesnt seem to be the case for quite a lot of people trying it. youve already recovered on it, you should do so again.