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AAH! I'm SO Annoyed with MYSELF!

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Elzabeta_Zelani
Elzabeta_Zelani

I have several different diagnoses:

Severe Social Anxiety

Chronic Depression (or Dysthymia)

PTSD

Personal Identity Disorder

Short Term Memory Amnesia

Epilepsy

Here is my question:

I get nervouse around people, and I CAN"T STOP TALKING!

I mean I'm hearing myself and thinking, would you please shut up!

I am extremely sinsative to sound, motion, activity, and repetativeness. I've looked up autism and I don't think it apples. Let me explain.

I can NOT stand loud sounds, or a lot of noise.

I can NOT tollerate someone touching or moving things near me. (like someone looking through papers, or picking up things.

I can NOT STAND repetitive noise. There are times when the clicking of a keyboard makes me want to bore my own eyes out.

And get this bit of irony.... I have a son who screams for no reason when he's happy, constantly repeats EVERYTHING, words and actions, and is always touching stuff.

He's a kid, it's his right to do these things... But Why am I so irritated by it? And WHY CAN"T I STOP GETTING ON MY OWN NERVES!!!

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  • Elzabeta_Zelani
    Elzabeta_Zelani

    Posted

    I also can not stand being touched... it's like being attacked... it is horrible
  • debbie27473
    debbie27473 Elzabeta_Zelani

    Posted

    Hi. Sorry to hear you are suffering so badly. The first thing that occurs to me to ask is: Are you on medications? How long have you been on them? Finally, are any of them helping you or is your condition getting worse? Just another thought. Were you already suffering before you had your little boy? Take care, Debbie
    • Elzabeta_Zelani
      Elzabeta_Zelani debbie27473

      Posted

      Yes, I have been suffering for years, bu never knew what was wrong. I grew up thinking I was mad as ahatter lol

      I do take medications, and they help stem the flow basically of my seizures, but I have never had any real control over them. Since they are mostly absence seizures, it is not so dangerous as it is extremely annoying.

      I was diagnosed with anxiety when I was 7, and ptsd when I was 15, and 21.

      My thing is though, I've had a real struggle with the talking since I was a child, and the sinsitivity to touch, and repetitive noise, has developed steadily over the years. Everything I've ever read about anxiety though says that people shut down, or don't talk very much... It's like I'm in Hyper Super Sonic Mouth mode, and can't stop if I tried. And sometimes, I REALLY try. To no avail... sad

    • Elzabeta_Zelani
      Elzabeta_Zelani debbie27473

      Posted

      Yes, Debbie, I have been dealing with this for years, and it does seem to be getting worse. I have been taking medicine for seizures only since I was pregnant with my son, That's when I found out I had seizures. I suspect, but there's no way of knowing, that I've had epilepsy my whole life, and that life events may have made itthe condition worse until it was finally detected.

      The medications seem to help my seizures be less frequesnt, (I've gone from unknow amount per day, to around 4-5 when properly medicated).

      Bur nothing seems to make the feeling of constant annoyance go away. Sometimes, I am not annoyed, but other times I am, and I don't really know why. I have noticed though that If I don't get proper sleep the annoyance level increases.

      NOTHING seems to help the talking though... It's driving me crazy, becuase it's so embarrassing...

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