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I have been up every night at 2-3 am due to the nightmares and flashbacks that have been coming into my mind like a windstorm. I have always known that something had happened to me as a young girl (it started when I was 6 until I was 13) my obsession with being clean and showering up to 4 times a day for example, or the fact that I cannot go a day without shaving every bit of hair off my body (everywhere but my head of hair). The flashbacks are terrifying and I am reliving my childhood. I have always wondered why I did not remember a lot of those years, important years were buried somewhere in my brain and have now decided to surface in my nightmares. My depression has worsened and there have been times that I have been suicidal. Therapy is helping but I am still feeling scared, unable to sleep, depressed, anxious. I just don't know what else to do. My husband is supportive but he doesn't know how to help me...I feel out of control and I don't know what else to do. I thought there may be support on here but I wasn't sure what I should write. I may also be bipolar (I'm sure I am) but I do not see the doctor until next week. My mind is racing, I feel like I'm sitting on the edge getting ready to jump, I just need someone to tell me how they deal with the flashbacks and repressed memories, I'm not dealing with it very well a and need help...please?!?
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