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This post is really just so I can make a statement about my addiction and I hope that this will help me in beating it.
I'm also a recovering alcoholic, and have been doing well with my recovery, I only drank on 5 occasions last year and have been sober all through 2017, so on that side of things then all looks positive.
However, throughout last year I started taking codeine or dihydrocodeine recreationally as I found it gave me a nice escape from life (much like alcohol had). As my tolerance increased I found myself taking larger and larger does to get 'high'. I am getting the drugs without prescription which is expensive, so I also discovered the 'cold-water extraction' technique in which you take OTC co-codamol (paracetamol and codeine), or Paramol (paracetamol and dihydrocodeine) and crush them up then dissolve them in water, chill the solution down to near freezing and finally filter it. The aim being to filter out the paracetamol and leave the codeine / dihydrocodeine. The issue with this method is that you don't really know how much paracetamol is getting through, and paracetamol can be very toxic to the liver.
I was taking opioids a couple of times a week, or maybe only a few times in a fortnight for a while, but towards the end of last year my usage escalated, and I have been taking it every evening for 7-8 days straight, managing to stop for 2-4 days (and getting withdrawals) and then starting again for another 7-10 days or so. I now need to take 400-600mg codeine in one go to feel much of a high, or at least 400mg dihydrocodeine.
My health is suffering, my mental health is badly affected (I suffer with depression and anxiety anyway), I am getting into debt and due to the escalating costs and massive tolerance I have found myself contemplating getting some Heroin, which thankfully I haven't.
I have about 20x 30mg dihydrocodeine at home, and once they are gone then I really want to stop this habit before it escalates further, or before I do myself permanent damage. I feel like a fool for getting into another addiction after years of fighting alcoholism. I feel ashamed too and annoyed at myself.
I've just put this thread out there because I know that when tackling my alcohol issues that it helped just to admit the severity of things to others.
Thanks for reading, sorry for the long post. Best wishes to you all!
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