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I have Clinical Depression and various other mental health illnessess. I've been close to this boy- well, at least I thought so anyway. We had sex and he knew exactly how vulnerable I was when it all happened and now. He knew I wasn't even sure on whether we should be doing it, due to how vulnerable I was and how my mental health issues were affecting my judgment/descions at the time and even now; but it happened. To put it straight, this boy used me. I am fully aware it is not rape (and would never wrongly/fasley accuse someone) as I never denied consent. However, I cannot help but feel he has used my vulnerabilities to get what he wants and that's it. I am extremely hurt at the fact he has used me knowing how vulnerable and unstable I was both at the time and currently. Prior to having sex with him, he made me very dependant on him; he made me feel isolated to the point where I felt I only had him and had lost everyone else around me because of him. I don't really know what to do, I mean, would this be classed as something at all? I really do not know; I just feel broken, sick and like I cannot breath. I don't want anyone to think I am accusing him of rape, etc because I really am not. I am stating that I can't help but think this is more than just a typical boy using girl for sex situation. The way he has done everything suggests more. I know some people here will say I should be responsible for myself but when I am as vunerable as I was both at the time and now; I am not myself and am not capable of making any decisions. Taking into consideration that this boy knew everything in full detail about me and how everything affects me, all of my vulnerablities and that he knew if anything happened I would NOT be able to tell anyone due to infact having no one else but also family issues (so unable to discuss with family), does anyone else think this would be classed as something? It sure feels that way if not; I feel as though I've kind of been manipulated or brainwashed to believe and trust him fully so I am dependant on him and now dropped. If so, I would like to once again state that I will not be using this against him in anyway but I want to know for my own mind; to help myself move forward from this. Thanks in advance.
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