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Hi my friends. This is my third attempt this morning to type this post ( they keep disappearing before I've finished - frustrating ) but I'm NOT drinking Alcohol. My Binge stopped Easter Monday.I was in a dreadful state so Ill covered in brusies from falling over, hubby disgusted with me disgusted with myself for getting into that state AGAIN.Fast forward to this morning body is recovering feeling better in myself hubby is speaking to me thank God one last chance I would rather have him than Alcohol - that's the choice I have so it's up to me ! ? To be honest with you all since the recovery time started surreptitiously I went into a brand new pub to see what it looked like and how lovely a glass of wine would be.I wanted to watch the lovely wine being poured into a Large glass imagining what the first taste would be like the buzz magic ! ! After half a glass had gone I thought this is not so nice why did I bother spending £6. 50 on it ? Finished it though - can never leave unfinished wine.Walking home began to feel very drunk.That evening legs and ankles started to swell again stomach felt uneasy.Fortunately Hubby did'nt notice symptoms. That was not the last time since then I found 2 cans of Larger that I had hidden at some point but forgotten about them drank one immediately same horrible feeling again. This Sunday went out with hubby had lovely day perfect weather nice lunch good walk no stress.On way home all I could think about was a glass of wine which would finish day off perfectly.Not to be only had the can of Larger that would have to do so focused on that.Whilst hubby made the cups of tea I went upstairs and opened can.It was'nt a lovely day after that I felt rubbish again. I'm not bothering to buy supplies anymore then I won't be tempted but on the other hand if I don't have emergency supplies available-the craving might be to difficult to cope with.Sorry I have gone on so much. I will have to have more willpower and determination and remember how much I will lose and how i feel when I drink Alcohol - only small amounts as well.Perhaps my Body has become intolerant with Alcohol.Does anyone know about that ?
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