All hope lost

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The NHS Mental health awareness is just veneer. I think that all GPs do if throw SSRIs at people and offer talk therapies, any more than that they can not help. Why make a big deal of it, showing people what they can not have? it is evil. I have had years of trying to get help and now all hope is lost. Sometimes I am so depressed it actually hurts, you feel such pain and discomfort with it and I am so tired. I can not sleep. I have so many issues with my head, paranoia and such evil thoughts destroying me all the time. This puts me in a state of anxiety constantly. I tried writing letters to my GP but it got me nowhere. I do not know what else I can do. The thoughts of hurting myself are overwhelming and it is the only thing that makes sense because I know that things will never change. I has been years. I think there is a bigger picture here and I think it is very selective because some people seem to get help I think. I am thinking of ways to kill myself. I tried to use a hosepipe in my exhaust once because I knew someone that did this once, I read that it takes 10 minutes but after 30 I was still alive. I felt such a failure. I found an onion website where you can get drugs, I have never used heroin before but I think this is a really good idea. It is meant to feel really good and I heard that people who OD just forget to breath. So you make your mind up that it is time then it is like you just enjoy the ride. I saw the CMT again on Monday and they took my last hope , she was so nasty to me and my wife told them I had been the victim of domestic abuse and violence in my life so I know they will never have me back after her saying this. I keep telling them my GP and support worker can not help, they just keep referring me back to my GP who never helps me. Why does this happen. I just wanted to be ok. I am so unhappy. I am going to do this.

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    Hi I'm thinking you just wanted a rant about what you haven't been offered and yet you say you were having therapy, can you actually tell us what you think will help you to get into a better place?? Once you know that you are half way to a solution, didn't say a cure because their isn't one, once you suffer with mental health issues I believe it's a life long issue, I do believe though that if you 100% want to get at least in a place where you can live a better quality of life then you need to make a concerted effort to help yourself, I do know because I have been their got the teashirt, hat, gloves and scarf and still wear them sometimes.

    You need to find a coping strategie that helps you personally, not always easy but very possible, suicide is one way out if you totally don't care about your family but my thoughts are that if you truly don't want to live you wouldn't be complaining about what they don't do for you

    As for your doctor he's a straight forward GP stands for general practitioner, he learns a little bit of everything and not a lot about others, mental health is a very broad spectrum of symptoms and therefore he can't treat it completely as a specialist would, how long have you been suffering and how old are you.

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    I absolutely agree that the system is selective. I struggle with depression and anxiety myself, severe I should add. I went to my GP 3 years ago and I’ve still not received ANYTHING in the form of talking therapies or antidepressants. I know how hard it is to get the help, so I really sympathise with you. Please know that suicide isn’t the answer. You just need to be more insistent. Refuse to leave until you’re offered CBT or even electroconvulsive therapy because counselling and drugs haven’t worked. They cannot just cast you aside. 

    From speaking to people, I’ve found that some of them had to attempt suicide three times to even get antidepressants, let alone anything else. Some of them are still heavily struggling years on. Mental health help in the UK is very bad, but you can get there with insistence and (quite honestly) stubbornness. 

    Please keep trying. You’re worth something. 

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    Hi in many ways I agree with you on the NHS but in their defense I will say mental illness is not an exact science and there is not enough treatment available to help everyone.

    Having said that the NHS has helped many including me.  The main medical treatment consists of meds and therapy.  If that is not helping you then why aren't they trying something stronger such as ECT or a stay in a mental hospital to help get you stabilised?  If you have had all this treatment and it hasn't helped I am not sure what else the NHS can do to help.

    Have you looked at the self help route?  This includes mindfullness,  meditation,  yogs etc.  There is lots of info available online about these.

    I hope you find some answers.  x

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    I can't get any NHS talking therapy at all. When I saw a mental health worker last year, she said to me "Psychotherapy would help you. Unfortunately we don't have any psychotherapists in our area." Requested an assessment by the Eating Disorders Team three times. Never got it until I was told by a wellbeing adviser that I could self refer. IAPT consisted of someone telling me they had details of counsellors but "you probably won't want them because they charge." I said "Ideally not, but if that's all you've got then I'm interested." (She never gave me the details.) Her only other suggestion was a wellbeing webinar but "you'll have to convince them you're stable because they don't normally take people with your diagnosis" (schizophrenia.) All my GP did was increase my venlafaxine to 350mg, and I was already on 750mg quetiapine. What hurt is that I know what good mental healthcare is like, because up until 2014 I had it.

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