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The NHS Mental health awareness is just veneer. I think that all GPs do if throw SSRIs at people and offer talk therapies, any more than that they can not help. Why make a big deal of it, showing people what they can not have? it is evil. I have had years of trying to get help and now all hope is lost. Sometimes I am so depressed it actually hurts, you feel such pain and discomfort with it and I am so tired. I can not sleep. I have so many issues with my head, paranoia and such evil thoughts destroying me all the time. This puts me in a state of anxiety constantly. I tried writing letters to my GP but it got me nowhere. I do not know what else I can do. The thoughts of hurting myself are overwhelming and it is the only thing that makes sense because I know that things will never change. I has been years. I think there is a bigger picture here and I think it is very selective because some people seem to get help I think. I am thinking of ways to kill myself. I tried to use a hosepipe in my exhaust once because I knew someone that did this once, I read that it takes 10 minutes but after 30 I was still alive. I felt such a failure. I found an onion website where you can get drugs, I have never used heroin before but I think this is a really good idea. It is meant to feel really good and I heard that people who OD just forget to breath. So you make your mind up that it is time then it is like you just enjoy the ride. I saw the CMT again on Monday and they took my last hope , she was so nasty to me and my wife told them I had been the victim of domestic abuse and violence in my life so I know they will never have me back after her saying this. I keep telling them my GP and support worker can not help, they just keep referring me back to my GP who never helps me. Why does this happen. I just wanted to be ok. I am so unhappy. I am going to do this.
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