Am I a no hoper?
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Hi Guys. I don't know if anyone can help me here but I am in trouble and I don't know what to do. I'll make it as brief as I can. I am a flight attendant. I had an accident whilst working a flight in 2013. Since then I have been off sick with anxiety. I have had CBT, EMDR, Hypnosis, Reiki and have just been struck off the councelling list (as I have had all my sessions available) I am taking propanolol 20mg daily as well as 2mg diazapam and have been back to work for 3 days now. Today at work was horrible. Every single move the aircraft made I nearly broke down. I am so worried I am failing with everything I have learnt. It is so hard to hold a memory of anything good when we hit a bumpy patch in the air and I feel as if I am losing control.
Can anyone please help me? I am scared stiff to take any other medication as my company could find out and fire me. I am literally at my wits end with this fear, yet it is a job I have adored for 10 years now and already tonight I am starting to panic about tomorrow and if I can even get out of bed to go to work.
Anyone please have some advice before I literally go insane with anxiety
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tonya46846 airportlife
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louise1974 airportlife
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First of all NO you are not a no hoper. I really feel for you as I'm sure it's a really hard job to do with anxiety. My advice really would be to try and anti depressant which works long term. Can they actually find out if you're taking anything else? I mean I'm sure you're not the first flight attendant and won't be the last one, probably folk keep quiet about it. I have suffered on and off with anxiety since 18 years old and I'm now 40 and I have tried everything from therapy, CBT, yoga, meditation, Propanolol etc etc but the ONLY thing that works for me is an anti depressant. Currently I'm on Citalopram and seriously my life would be hell without it. Why live in this hell if you can do something about it? There is always an answer I promise you that. Can they actually fire you for taking medication? I would urge you to think about it, life is too short to feel so bad and I know from personal experience what a bloody nightmare it is.
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louise1974 airportlife
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Yeah it can be that crippling, it's awful, if I could tell you my experiences in one paragraph I would but all I can say is that normally I'm a very very strong, outgoing, independent person and at times I have been turned into a weepy, needy, can't go out of the house wihtout sheer fear kind of person. Thank God however I feel great now on the Cit.
airportlife louise1974
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I am so glad you are on the mend. This is just so unlike me, to be scared of my job. I am desperate to return to work feeling calm and if meds have to do then they will.. I'm keeping everything crossed.
Thank you x
louise1974 airportlife
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Good on you. Hopefully you won't need to take the Diazepam long so it should be fine. Just take it when you need it to calm yourself and hopefully when the Cit kicks in it won't be an issue. I really believe you've done the right thing. The citalopram can take a really good while to work fully and sometimes you will doubt it's working but have patience you will really get there in the end. Are you still working or have you taken some time off?
gwen1953 airportlife
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Please return to your doctor and tell him how things have been since your return to work and see what he suggests. Good Luck in time I'm sure you'll be fine.
airportlife gwen1953
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I am scared because I know these things can be addictive and that is the last thing I want. I also know they are only temporary so I am hoping by the end f this year I will find myself another job.
Thank you for your kind words. I am keeping everything crosed for sure. x