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i went to the doctors and explained i was feeling down, she said visit this website to see if i feel i have things in common with people who are depressed. i am up and down, my moods can just change if something small annoys me, i sleep too much, when i get home from work i just fall asleep which means sometimes i sleep for 10 hours. i also eat too much, sugar in particular. im not over weight but i feel like i will be if i keep eating, i feel like when i eat it fills a gap, i have a lot of stress in my family, my mum has a mental illness but she always has so im used to it, my brother has a drug problem and always gets beat up so im constantly worrying about him, he had 3 strokes when he was 17 and hes 24 now, hes not been the same since.. he has no organisation with money and is forever coming to me and my mum for money for electric or food when really i know its for weed. he has been been up numerous of times but not just a punch, a really bad kick in. it makes me shake in anger and worry when i think about what they do to him. i live in an apartment with my partner, we get on, we both work full time, we enjoy holidays together and there is no reason i should be upset with my own life but it seems other things are getting to me, however i cant blame everything on my brother. at work people say to me.. whats up you look sad.. when at the time i feel fine, its like im depressed but i dont realise? my partner is good to me and we rarely argue but recently i dont want sex with him and i snap at him. i just feel like im not myself, there is something hanging over me making me sad/unhappy.. but its like ive learned to mask it and pretend to everyone that im okay, even though there is nothing to pretend about because i think im okay?
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