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Am I going insane??

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tanya99
tanya99

I woke up in the morning again feeling like blank almost? I'm not sure if that's because I'm trying to think to deeply about things in the morning as soon as I open my eyes but all these thought's began to rush in my head because I felt confused about my surroundings like what if I am not right, what if I don't feel connected to my family anymore, am I even myself anymore and it all bombarded my head and I could not think what so ever I had a million and one thought running through my head and I felt almost hopeless. I'm so sick of how I feel and some of the thoughts I get fair enough anyone can get any thought they want but I don't want them what so ever

things such as what if I end up becoming insane

what if I don't feel connected to myself or my family and obviously thoughts stimulate feelings of panic which sets me off on an extreme panic and I feel like I can't do anything and nothing can help me and I get a crazy feeling in my chest like a burning feeling I am soso terrified, I'm 15 and I feel that by thinking of this stuff I am convincing myself I have certain things

 

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  • rachel62244
    rachel62244 tanya99

    Posted

    Have u seen a doctor? You need to. You are not going insane its anxiety. Insane people don't know there going crazy you are fully aware of that's happening to your body. I often feel confused and feel I can't remember anything because my head is so full of crap lol x
    • tanya99
      tanya99 rachel62244

      Posted

      I have done and I began to see a women from 42nd street counciling, I was starting to feel better about 2 weeks ago as I was just kinda getting myself in school and focusing but since talking to her and it's brought it back and it's become extremely hard, I just feel helpless all the time.

      All my family just tell me to stop thinking of weird stuff but it's so hard, I get these thoughts and end up convincing they're real? Like my mum told me these stories about the patients she works with (she works with mental health) and I become paranoid that I'll turn schizophrenic or something and completely lose control of myself! It's so so so hard I just want to cry all the time. These thoughts like ''Am I really me'' ''Are these really my family'' they drive me insane because I know deep down I have logic somewhere but in them moments I become to the point where nothing can calm me down and I have convinced myself I am utterly f*cked up! So scary how you can just go off the rails like that. I'm not sure if I keep having out of body sensations, like I feel like I'm not a part of myself or something! x

    • tanya99
      tanya99 rachel62244

      Posted

      I went to the doctors and she was actually useless, did absolutely nothing other than refer me to camhs and I was asking how long it took and she said 6 weeks so I had nothing in that time to help me, I eventually had to go A&E because I had convinced myself I had a split personality as one minute I'd feel fine and the next I'd be back to worrying feeling like I'm inside my own head but I think that's because I was forcing myself to feel fine, the doctor at hospital said I could be suffering from mild depression but I HATE labels, especially someone for my age as I do believe hormones can play a massive part in things. But anyway I got given a week off school and a referal to 42nd street, but before I started to see her I was on my way to feeling okay(ish) again but then that completely brought everything back. I waste all my time thinking about stuff that just worrys me. My mum works with mental health and she used to tell me about her patients and I think that was to stop me from ever taking drugs but now anxiety has come along I convince myself I'm schizophrenic or something, and always panic that I'm suddenly going to start hearing voices and seeing things and stuff like that. I'm so fed up it's horrible, these thoughts of am I even me, are these really my family blahblah make me feel so crazy it's unbearable. Nothing can calm me down x
  • janet60228
    janet60228 tanya99

    Posted

    So sorry to hear how you are feeling.

    I am a lot older,but feel exactly the same .

    When I wake up,my mind starts working overtime.

    You are not alone.I start to panic about anything and everything.

    Don't think you are going insane.

     

    • tanya99
      tanya99 janet60228

      Posted

      It's like my mind try's to think but I can't think it's petrifying, I'm sick of convincing myself I have these different mental illnesses it's an actual joke I don't know where this anxiety has come from at all! I can't even meditate or try to relax because that worries me!!
  • rachel62244
    rachel62244 tanya99

    Posted

    I don't know why this happens. I'm not a worrier yet something has trigger in my head and im in fear all all everuday . its really awful. I get really dizzy and disconnect from my surroundings like I'm in a big bubble. Please let a doctor help you x
  • clare138
    clare138 tanya99

    Posted

    Hi Tanya

    You are not going insane. When I said the same thing to my psychiatrist she said that I wouldn't know if that

    Was happening, so don't think that.It's very hard when all these thoughts race around in your head and you feel out of control.If you haven't seen a doctor please do go. Most doctors these days are aware of the unseen mental health of people. I hope you have a Christmas that's calmer.

    • tanya99
      tanya99 clare138

      Posted

      I have seen a doctor but she was absolutely hopeless! It really all started off because I was researching weird stuff about astral projection and it said all this weird stuff about demons ect and I just became extremely fearful of it like so bad I couldnt even sleep and I started to have panic attacks but I'm wondering if thats because I'm so stressed with all my exams and coursework and being behind in work and wanting to apply for colleges ect I just pinned it onto something else? Idk?? I'm suffering bad right now with a fear of going mentally ill, because I honestly feel like I'm unstable, my dads pretty smart with all stuff like this and he tryed relaxation with me but I can't even do that because of all the weird thoughts that pop into my head and because I'm panicing almost all day, it feels extremely weird to try and relax

      I'm just scared of getting weird thoughts about not really being me, because I know there's logic in there somewhere but I just really cant get to it my minds full of crap!

      I hope you have a lovely christmas too, all the best for new year

    • katy55793
      katy55793 tanya99

      Posted

      just a simple tip, but;

      have you tried doing something like playing a game that really makes your mind focus? helps me sometimes... sounds like you spend a lot of time thinking about what you're thinking so do something that takes some of the emphasis off yourselfsmile

    • tanya99
      tanya99 katy55793

      Posted

      Do you ever get weird feelings that you haven't felt before though? and ever sometimes think of something really simple and it gets you all in a panic? or is it just me hahaha

      I do spend all day almost just thinking about how I feel, why I feel this way, how I can improve it and blahblahblah

       

  • janet60228
    janet60228 tanya99

    Posted

    I think most of us on here feel the same.

    Something simple will prey on my mind for ages until it becomes an obsession

    I get palpitations,start to shake.and get a Headache.

    No matter how sympathetic family are,they don't understand .

    We all do,honestly.

    Hope having us to talk to helps a little.

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