Am I going mad...

I suspect that you would feel in a far better place and more able to cope if you had better support from your husband. Talk it over with him if you feel able to.

All the best Richard

Hi Jay, No I am sure ou are not going mad sweetie! You have had a great deal on your plate. I see that you are an amazing wife and mother with all of your balancing acts that you contend with each day! Well welcome to the club girl. Yes many of us started out with severe stress in our lives and too many demands on our energies. It is only normal that we could develop anxiety and depression at times. I would suggest that you have the Doctor reassess your medication for depression sweetie. Some work for a time and then it may need to be adjusted to another meds. That is what some of my friends have told me who suffer from depression. Stress can bring on Fibromyalgia and make it worse when we are going through trials. So I would encourage you to try to manage your worry Jay. Have you ever tried a Journal? That has helped me over the years. Getting our thoughts and emotions out in that way helps us to assess our situation more rationally and it helps also to find solutions. Your husband may never change but you can change in how you react to his behaviour. Be kind to yourself and nurture your needs. Small things we give ourselves amount to a lot in the long run. You will have better days Jay. Things never stay the same. So handle each day as it comes and don't look to the next. It will have it's own challenges. We often presume or imagine things to be in a very negative outcome when we are feeling down. You have made it this far girl, and you will make it through the days to come. You are stronger than you think, but you need to manage your energies and your own demands you place on yourself. How would you treat a dear cherished friend who needed you? That is the way you need to look at your own needs Jay. Self care is very crucial as women in general, and more so with us who are dealing with a chronic condition. When you begin putting your own needs in the forefront, your husband may beging to respect you better. That is usually the way men are. The more we give the more we reward their self centeredness. So we need new strategies to care for ourselves. Try to read some books on self worth and self esteem sweetie. Anyway, you are not alone. We all face many challenges in our personal lives but you can cope better with some research. Warm gentle hugs sweetie! Maggie xx