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Hi. I'm a newbie on here.
I had my last baby 7yrs ago when I was 40. Since then my periods have been very inconsistent. I'll go months with them being regular then I'll bleed for 3 weeks constantly, then I'll bleed every other week. I've had scans, blood tests, etc done and everything comes back fine.
My moods fluctuate. I'll be fine for a while, then I'm snappy and irritable with everyone.
In the last 6 months I have been waking in the night sweating and for the last 2 weeks I've had awful problems getting to sleep when I go to bed or if I wake in the early hours.
My most recent 'symptom' has been my self esteem. I'm so low. I feel so useless and worthless. I feel invisible....Its like no one is interested in anything I have to say anymore.....or am I so hypersensitive that it just feels that way to me? I'm short tempered with my kids, then I feel like I'm a failure as a mum.
And I feel so lonely. My partner is no support at all. He complains that I'm irritable and moody, tells me to cheer up etc but wont listen when I try and talk to him about how I feel. I have very few friends and they are all mums from my daughters school who are a good 10yrs younder than me so have no idea what I'm talking about.
i have days where I just want to run away. Some days I want to tell my partner to clear off and let me just be alone, other days I just want him to hug me and tell me he loves me and is there for me.
I know I should exercise and eat healty, but even that is all too much effort right now.
I have spoken to doctors, but all they say is "its your age I'm afraid, its to be expected"
Oh and pains in my breasts......thats been happening a lot more recently too.
I'm so glad I've found this. I'm hoping talking to others who may understand how I'm feeling will help. I need to feel more positive but I just dont know how right now.
Sorry for waffling on. I'm normally a fun happy go lucky person....honest!
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