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This is a really long story. I've posted on here about similar problems but right now I feel so depressed and I don't know what is wrong with my body.
Long story short. I live in a country where anxiety and depression IS NEVER talked about. Its not a thing here.
I started a new job about 2 months ago. I had a hard time adjusting. My boyfriend has been so supportive which has helped.
My bosses didn't give me health insurance. Despite having it written in my contract. I started to feel sick and wanted to go and get tested (for me its really reassuring when a doctor tells me I'm okay - anxiety sucks!)
But without insurance it will be really expensive. They kept delaying which has caused me more and more stressed.
I was having panic attacks daily. Constantly on edge. Sore throat. Diarrhea (mostly just loose - sorry for giving too much information) shaking and recently I've started feeling faint. I've been trying to drink more and more water and it seems to be helping.
I left my job last week. It got too much. I felt I couldn't do my job anymore. So I will lose my visa and return home.
I plan to return home this coming week. I'm scared if flying. Its a 12 hr flight. I'm scared that I'm going to faint and I have bad stomach pain. I'm scared that there is something really wrong with me. It's probably all just anxiety. But my mind wanders and constantly worries.
To top everything off. My ex bosses are trying to sue me over the entire situation as well as telling lies to immigration claiming I'm trying to leave the country illegally.
I just want to return to the UK and get better. I'm so depressed here. The constant nausea, stomach ache and fuzzy head feeling is just making me feel so depressed. I have been sleeping for about 12houes on average but still feel exhausted.
Im just scared. Can anyone give me some advice?
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