Am I still me?
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I think my time in here has been well documented. After five months of battling severe anxiety and OCD which seem to culminate today in a breakthrough maybe?
I swore today I was losing my mind that I was slowly going into a psychosis as I waited to go see a new psychiatrist. I didn't have any safety nets no family no compulsively checking google I just said a prayer and went with a friend to my appointment downtown by myself I didn't panic didn't lose it, I asked for directions talked to people, even calmly got on an elevator (which I have a phobia about) it's like I saw anxiety for what it is by being forced to face my worse fears
But it leaves you wondering if your still sane how you can spend five months in such a hell then Suddenly it's like something clicks and you feel like yourself again or nearly yourself again as I still deal with some intrusive thoughts
I'm looking for any members of this community who have recovered from anxiety or OCD have you ever had that happen where it just clicks one day and your yourself again? But it makes you wonder where you been?
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christophe65952
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For so long my fear wasn't going crazy and being taken away from who feel I am so any obsession phobia or anxiety came from that root
And today I felt like my worst fears were coming true and now it's like while still scary they just seem irrational I'm able tot hobo more rational which seems out of the blue after five months of therapy
christophe65952
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I would really appreciate a reply as I feel like I've hit a breakthrough but just feel confused
christophe65952
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Like even my memory of the past five months seems foggy like a dream I know stress can cause that but I'm guess I'm asking for the one thing I know better than to chase and that's reassurance if I am healed or almost there I don't wanna look back but I also fear I've lost it
Ashley025 christophe65952
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Hey Christopher
I'm glad you're better. Everything will be alright now just continue thinking that way. Our Anxiety is irrational and so is the OCD. Don't worry just try to keep getting better. All those thoughts should stay in the past so you can move forward. I know it will be hard but I'm happy it clicked for you. I have those moments too. Sometimes things in Life make us realize we were wrong all along. Anxiety makes us fear, worry about things we don't have control over. I worry excessively about every single thing and it drives me insane but I have those moments like you just did and realized all my thoughts are false. We are not what we think! We are strong! We can do this! Life is too short to spend time worrying about everything or anything. It can go away in a blink of an eye. I lost two grandma's and that just hit me. What matters? Nothing does. We only have today why worry.. we waste time. Time that we could spend with our family or others. It's not as easy as I say. Words are easier said than done. I always try to give good advice to others but when it comes to doing it myself.... Lol I don't. Everyone has different issues and different worrys, different story's, different journeys. Difficult pasts that we can overcome with help or positiveness. What matters is getting back up when we fall down. No matter what comes at us we keep fighting. Stay Strong my friend.🙌
Keep moving forward👏
infestissumam christophe65952
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Has your anxiety stayed away since then? And did your anxiety/OCD start five months ago or did it become severe five months ago?
The minds are strange things. I used to be super afraid of the dark then one night I just said "there's nothing in the dark, why should I be afraid?" and I haven't had any problems since then. I don't know what it was but I was just able to overcome that fear in a matter of seconds.
Well, whatever happened, I hope you're feeling better.