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If you are reading this, I would like to say Thank You in advance. I am trying to express 10 years of my experience in a concise, detailed, chronological order. However, my mind is reeling a bit from hours of typing/remembering, and Im not sure how succesful i've been in keeping focus. Please bare with me..
I started having Prostate problems/symptoms of BPH at age 17. There would be instances where after urinating, I felt as though I had not completely emptied my bladder. I would stand/sit over the toilet as long as 30mins straining to squeeze the last bit out. There would be a burning sensation at the tip of my penis. Eventually what came out was a cloudy discharge, a bit thicker than normal urine. I believed this to be a mixture of semen and urine. At this point I was still a virgin, so I did not suspect an STD. When I told my Father about my symptoms, he said "Its probably your Prostate " I said, "What the hell is a Prostate?" (My Father had BPH in his mid-20's) When I was 19 or 20 I went to Urologists at University of Michigan. At first they told me my symptoms were "In my head", but I insisted they investigate. A DRE confirmed that my Prostate was indeed "Pronounced". They then inserted a cytoscope (I think thats what it's called..) which showed no significant strain or blockage of my urethera. I was diagnosed with "Non-Bacterial Prostatitis" and given antibiotics. I took the antibiotics and returned to the doctor with no improvement. They told me I would basically have to live with it, which is what I did. I had researched the conventional medicines and surgical procedures available and decided the possible side effects were not worth the risk, especially for someone my age. I just tried to ignore the ever present "dull ache" and sense of fullness that waxed/waned in intensity, with no discernable triggers or patterns.
Then, at around age 24 I began hearing those radio-ads for "Super Beta Prostate" and decided to order a bottle. The bottle came with a little book called "The Natural Prostate Cure" by Roger Mason. I read Roger's book and another one by him called "Zen Macrobiotics for Americans" (Which he has since changed the title to Zen Macrobiotics for Everyone) At the same time I also read a book called "The Master Cleanse" I decided to follow the information presented in these books. Before converting to a "Macrobiotic Diet", I dutifully executed The Master Cleanse. I carried a backpack around with me, full of lemons and a cutting board/knife so I could prepare the cayanne lemonade fresh, as to avoid loss of its enzymatic integrity. I was desperate (and still am) I did not eat for 10 days. I did the saltwater enimas morning and night. (Nothing weird ever came out) When I started eating again, I ate only Whole Grains and Vegetables. I cut out dairy products. I took most of the 20+ recommended vitamins. None of this seemed to help EXCEPT, I believe, cutting out dairy products. (I had been drinking a lot of Milk mixed with this most likely terrible for you stuff called Muscle Milk. I had been weight training and wanted to get buff.) Since cutting out most dairy, my urine has cleared up, and there have been fewer acute "Attacks". However, I still have all other symptoms. There is still the mysteriously waxing/waning dull ache/sensation of fullness. I've done the Master Cleanse twice over the years. I have gone on and off the Vegan/Macrobiotic Diet as well various times.
I've had my hormones tested multiple times revealing no abnormalities.
I took counsel from a guy by the name of "Faceless Fat-loss" who had me trying things like coloidial silver. He did however bring to my attention the existence of the Aneros Prostate Massage device, which is definitely helpful in increasing my sexual sensitivity.
I travelled to New Jersey to have my body "scanned" electronically for various ailments. (Ever since my prostate started hurting, depression and anxiety symptoms have been present and steadily getting worse.) This machine did indeed pick up on an abnormality of my prostate. It also told me I was Zinc deficient. They gave me a Zinc supplement, along with an herbal tincture containing your standard Saw Palmetto, Pygeum, Stinging Nettles etc., I took these for a while with no improvement.
I read a rather redundant book called "A Headache in the Pelvis" which is written empathetically which is nice, but I havent really explored much of the specifics suggested in the book. I think it requires going to a costly seminar to learn the "Stanford Protocol". Its on the back burner.
I quit caffiene for 2 1/2 months. Read a book called "Caffiene Blues" No notable improvement. (with this I was more concerned with depression/mental fatigue, lack of concentration and low energy levels, although these symptoms are undoubtedly largely connected to my 10 years of prostate pain.)
The most recent book I have picked up is called "Healthy Prostate" by a guy named Ronald Bazar. To my dismay, this book relies heavily on a concept of "Energy Testing" with a Pendulum in order to determine what one is supposed to eat/what supplements to take. I bought the damn pendulum but it doesnt seem to want to answer my questions.
The newest thing I am trying is to increase my Zinc intake through actual food rather than supplements. I am making Pumpkin Seeds into a kind of pesto so I can eat a larger amount faster, and I bought some Brazil nuts for the first time, too.
This pain is the heaviest weight on my spirit. It has damaged my confidence and self-esteem. If Clinical Depression is real, then I most likely am a sufferer largely in part to my Prostate ailments. I suppose I feel inadequate as a man. I do not have ED, but certain positions affect the quality of my erection, and there is definitely a threshold of discomfort I must push through in order to begin to feel what diminshed sensation I am able to during sex. I have gotten used to telling women about it, and they have always been understanding, but there is still a great deal of anxiety surrounding the issue for me.
I don't know what I am looking for on this forum. I just feel frustrated and alone, like my youth has been stolen from me. Nobody ive come in contact with in physical reality has shared my problem.
Thanks for reading, if you know something helpful that I don't, please tell me.
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