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Hi I'm Dan 31 an i live in kent pay attention kent will feature a lot in this post.
(Let me apologize for any spelling and grammar mistakes and for the length of it all)
I'm getting ahead of myself though as I was born an bred in Yorkshire where i spent the first wonderful 10yrs of my childhood but due t me been bullied my family moved to Kent while dragging me as i kicked and screamed the entire journey from Hull to Kent as i did not want to move and leave my friends and my 1st girlfriend and i would of rather of kept getting beat up by the bully who was 8yrs older then me and was the areas local ahole an would pick on everyone some worse then others and i just happened to be one of those he would hit or steal from every time he saw me why im guessing its because i was happy and he wasnt.
So the bullying continued for a year before my family moved and considering that i practically started getting bullied the first day i got to kent we should of stayed in hull atleast in hull i had friends and i was happy and now i cried myself to sleep an was been picked on due to my heavy yorkshire accent which i still have 21yrs later just not has heavy but its still their.
Although i did make friends eventually an this was about 3 months later when school started after the summer holidays because for the first 3 months i stayed indoors writing letters to my old friends and reading books as far as i was concerned i was in a prison been held against my will.
Six months pass and although i still cry myself to sleep and i still miss my friends an my gf not to mention the humber bridge and the princess quay shopping center which had only been finished about a year before i moved in 1992 if im not mistaken or was it 91 either way my mother would normally leave me at the railing watching it been built while she walked around town but i wasnt left alone i was left with my friend an her older brother before we went to the harbor an looked at the boats.
Anyway i know its long but i might aswell get everything of my chest about why im here typing this so forgive me if its boring.
So yeah 6 months later im still crying myself to sleep but i have made a few new friends both my age and older due to my new friends older sister dating a guy who stopped the bully picking on me.
me an my new friend would hang with him an play football or just mess around at the park which helped me to forget the fact that i was still living in a prison because even though i had family in kent it wasnt Hull and Hull is where my heart is or was but ill get to that later.
Now at this time i was happy or fairly happy i had new friends an even became somewhat popular among the older girls who id hang with once my other friends went in and this popularity was exciting all though at the time i didnt really see it maybe because i was too blind but one of the girls did like me although she was older we would get along like an house on fire an with my accent i became the comedian of the group an some would just use me an make me embarrass myself the girls would all treat me like their little brother which been a kid going through puberty became somewhat very embarrassing at times because they where attractive so id often get aroused when i shouldn't off and i also happened to be the firs of my friends to go through puberty so i also loved the attention especially the attention from Tina who i had puppy dog eyes for from the first time i saw her.
Now lets skip a few years to year 9 in secondary school my popularity had settled the bullying at restarted and i had other interests which kept me from socialising during the break times as the new interest an love of my life was the piano which was the only thing that truly made me feel alive since been in kent and also garnered me a lot of attention among the other kids an teachers that could hear me play and occasionally id be late for lessons because id forget i was at school but alas once breaks were over i had normal school lessons some of which the bullies would be in an again it was due to my accent and back then i had a very short fuse an with me been a brick shit house during school id often get in trouble for retaliating.
All that soon stopped though when i was given an ultimatum i can lash out and be banned from the music rooms or i can learn to control my temper an keep playing the piano which i did and id use beethoven an bach to vent my anger playing pieces such as toccatta an fugue in d minor to fur elise or whatever the mood called for at the time which all helped me to control my anger but that calmness and oneness would come to an end when my baby brother was born an the same bully who had been taunting me an insulting me for 4 years went to a place he shouldnt of gone too an insulted my brother now until then id take it an walk away but insulting my baby brother i snapped and all the calmness was replaced with pure primal rage as i dropped my bag and chased him down the corridor running through the doors he was locking behind him until i cornered him at the end as he tried desperately to open the doors to the playground i just looked at him an smiled as i knew he was mine an he knew it as he begged and pleaded for me not to hit him but all i saw was the bully insulting my baby brother so i just jumped on him got him in a headlock and started to choke the life out of him an at this point i didnt care if i killed him or not but either way i wasnt letting go of him an it must of been what seemed like a lifetime as every insult an fat joke he said to me flashed through my mind an before i knew it i had teachers trying to pull me off him but i was determined to not let go so more teachers came an my grip tightened until my music teacher came who was practically a father figure to me came an saw me and the look on his face was a look i'll never forget as he looked in disappointment at which i let go and dropped my head in shame as i knew id disappointed him even as the teachers were trying to talk to me i blocked it all out an just thought that no amount of apologizing to him would be enough.
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