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Hi, I know there are quite a few fissure discussions already on here but was just hoping for some advice and to discuss with other people this painful problem! As I feel quite lonely sometimes as it is not something which I feel I can freely discuss with everyone!
So in October this year, I moved house and got a new job which was quite a stressful period for me and I have read that fissures are sometimes caused by stress. I went to my GP who prescribed me rectogestic which gave me horrendous headaches, but actually really helped, there was only a sharp pain when passing a stool and not much pain afterwards (if it was soft!) However it had not properly healed so I was refered to the hospital. The consultant told me that I had a small fissure and she had seen much worse, which was quite reassuring but how can something so small cause so much pain!? She prescribed me some diltiazem cream but felt this did not work at all, made no difference and then back again I went to the hospital. She has now told me that having a botox injection is the next step in hoping to cure this problem. She explained it is injected either side of the fissure. However now reading some experiences online I have some doubts about this procedure. I am terrified of being put to sleep and even having the blood test in the pre-assessment scares me! ( I am a wimp I know.) I wonder if putting myself through all of this, when it might not even work, or worse suffer some sort of nerve damage as I have read online from others, is even worth it. She told me that they do not like to do the other surgical procedure, where they cut open the fissure, on young women as when they come to have children this puts pressure again on the fissure/scar tissue and the muscle and it can cause it to rip open. I also did not want this surgery as I am anxious of the chances of incontinence as that would ruin my life, especially as I am only 23.
I sometimes wonder if I can just live with this pain, especially as it is a 'small fissure' however I assume it can get bigger if you're straining or not having soft stools so I may have to face this issue again in the future anyway. However I do not have bleeding anymore, this only happened the first few times, maybe when the fissure was fresh? And unsure if I am having the spasms other people speak of, I just am sometimes unable to sit down after going to the toilet as the pain is quite bad. It does feel like glass when going to the toilet and sometimes am left crying and shaking, and then I think maybe I can't put up with this forever and why am I one of the unlucky ones to have this awful problem.
I don't know of anyone else around my age suffering with this problem and also would like to hear from people who have had the botox injection? My consultant said there is quite a high success rate but reading stories online, it does not seem to be that way?
Thanks for reading, feels good to get it off my chest a little! Such a hard topic to talk about with friends!
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