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i was on anti depressants for 7 years and then diagnosed with bipolar 11 so the meds were changed to venlafaxine and quetiapine. I started to feel better so came off them 8 months ago, against all advice and I went cold turkey.
once the side effects had passed I felt ok for a while but lately I've started to feel odd. Not depressed, like I was before, but more angry. I have this constant rage bubbling away under the surface, where I feel as I could rip someone's head off. I am agitated, constantly fidgeting, grinding my teeth, suffer back and shoulder pains (probably tension) and then because I am suppressing the rage I get headaches.
i can't sleep unless I take sleeping tablets and that's the one thing that seems to enable me to maintain some sort of control.
i don't feel depressed as such, but I cry a lot, do no reason and last night I was on the motorway and was thinking wouldn't it be easy if a lorry hit me and I died. That would take away the guilt of suicide, but enable me to get it all over and done with.
i don't understand what's wrong with me and don't know what to do.
im going to the doctors tonight but I think they'll just look at me as if I'm mad?
Is anger a symptom of depression / bipolar?
ive also lost interest in everything, can't be bothered to go anywhere, can't sleep without pills, don't eat so have lost a lot of weight, and have pushed everyone away.
im probably depressed but it feels different this time.
does anyone have any advice please?
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