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At the beginning of January 2016 I got severe food poisoning and landed up in hospital for 4 days. While in hospital I started noticing some anxiety which the doctors gave me Xanax to calm down. Since then things have gone extremely downhill.
I was put on a low dose of Cipralex which made my anxiety worse right off ther bat. I landed up checking myself into a psychiatric hospital and was trialed on several medications with similar side effects which my body just couldnt handle. I then had 2 courses of ECTs which helped somewhat but didnt last that long.
Since then I have been on SSRIs, SNRIs, MAOB, mood stabilizers and benzos. All of which made my anxiety and depression worse.
4 years ago I was on Cipralex and Klonopin for a minor episode and my body tolerated it well and I resumed enjoying my life.
I am now currently on Zyprexa, Lamictal, Buspar and Ativan 3 times a day which is being crossed over to Clobazam.
Every morning I wake up shaking and sick to my stomach with anxiety and lately my depressive symptoms are getting worse. My feeling is that the ativan wears off by the time I wake up. I have tried longer acting benzos but they seem to either make me more depressed or loopy.
Doctors have said that I might be sensitive to medication that affects serotonin and have sort of labeled me 'treatment resistant'. Have tried CBT and Hypnotherapy which hasnt helped either.
Where do I go from here? All I want is my life back. I used to be an outgoing carefree person. In the gym 5 times a week. Now I dont have any enjoyment in anything anymore and my anxiety has consumed every aspect of my life and I envy everybody living a normal life.
Can anybody relate and maybe have some insight as to what I can do??
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